starting over

At the end of the week
my son & I …

are moving out of the house that has been
our home for the last 11 years.

He did much of his growing up in this house.  And so did I.

It was in this house that I first met
the conspiracy movement
& it was here …

… I started writing.

Here also I met some of the best people in this world, even though I’ve never shaken hands with many of them.

This year I won’t see the tree outside my window come back into leaf.

At first it seemed as if this ‘eviction‘ was being forced upon us by a landlord wanting to sell.

But my son has told me of a feeling he’d had – that if he stayed in this place any longer, he was afraid he would become …

… rooted to the spot

His openness to this uprooting helped me see more clearly.

When I looked again I saw many ways that I too had called

… for movement & change.

Although it’s a very stressful time, it’s also immensely cleansing to sift consciously through the ridiculously collected paraphernalia & just let it go.

This year seems to be about the sifting through & relinquishing, hideously hoarded mental & emotional debris.  For me it’s been endless.

And now there is a new understanding about my mother that I’m struggling to come to terms with – dear god, how do people get so sick in their minds?

There have been two suicides within my extended family this year – both taking place on the other side of the world, but that didn’t make them any less shocking.  It can seem easy to put ourselves above these people & their actions, because we seem to manage ok.

Yet are we so very different from them?

Or is it just, that the cages we live in

…  are not quite so constrictive.

(everything in this colour comes from The Path of Least Resistance by Robert Fritz)

Human beings act in accordance with the underlying structures in their lives … some structures are more useful than others in leading to desired results.

Structure is “nothing personal.” Someone in a structure that leads to pain, frustration & hopelessness is not being designated by the universe as a victim of life.  Put anyone else in the same structure & that person will have similar experiences … People commonly believe that if they change their behaviour, they can change the structures in their lives.  In fact just the opposite is true

If you are living in a structure that produces oscillation you may consider this a problem to overcome.  It is not.  You are simply in a structure that is inadequate for creating what you want to create in life

No matter what dexterous position we take up within our cages, or what different foods we eat or books we read or wonderful new person we meet – as long as we reside within our present structures we will forever return to …

… the most comfortable shape we can manage within that cell.

If it seems to you that this is a closed & circular system, you are right.  If you attempt to solve, change, break through, transform, accept, reject, or avoid this structure, all you will do is reinforce it

According to Fritz, in order to be the creators that we are, we need new structures – ones based on creation, rather than problem solving.

A change in structure

will change the path of least resistance

I think it can be hard for us so schooled in suffering, struggling & earning to contemplate creating structures based on ease i.e. the path of least resistance.

And yet nature makes use of this strategy at every level:

Bacteria Take the Path of Least Resistance

Perhaps we can learn a lot from bacteria.

Do they work a 40 hour week?  No. Do they follow a religion?  No.  Are they financial wizards? No.  Do they follow the news? No.  Do they LIVE? By god, yes!

What is the most important (bacterially inspired) step we can take to live?

We must remember that we are the creators:

The most important developments in civilisation have come through the creative process, but ironically, most people have not been taught to create.  The creative process itself is a very different structure from the one most people have learned by default from our traditional educational systems & social upbringings

The current state of this world suggests it is trapped in an oscillating structure –

… & such a structure can never reach the resolution demanded by the creative process.

After years of dedicated work on the subject, psychologist Carl Jung made this astute observation:

All the greatest & most important problems of life are fundamentally insoluble … They can never be solved, but only outgrown.  This “outgrowth” proved on further investigation to require a new level of consciousness.  Some higher or wider interest appeared on the patient’s horizon, & through this broadening of his or her outlook the insoluble problem lost its urgency

Have we become a mouldy mass of problem solvers?  If Jung was right …

All the greatest & most important problems of life are fundamentally insoluble … They can never be solved, but only outgrown

… then we are going round in some seriously dodgy circles.

Come to think of it,
this takes me full circle –
back to moving home.

We have outgrown this house, my son & I.  I have loved it, but there has also been a constant struggle with cold & damp.  I no longer have the desire to repair this old ‘structure’ –  what I need is a new structure – one that is warm & cosy & heartening.

Perhaps that’s what these times are about – creating new structures.

Perhaps the reason we are getting so trapped & tired & dejected is because we’re trying to repair a structure that is impossible to repair.

Are we are trying to save a broken down, mouldy world instead of creating the framework for something new?

September 28, 2011. Uncategorized. 18 comments.

keeping you abreast

I did an unplanned radio show with the Celtic Rebel last night.

I think it went really well & we covered some unusual & controversial topics.

When we only have one story  i.e. the official one to navigate with, our journeying is non-existant – we have only one point on a blank map …

… so there’s nowhere else to go.

When we are allowed to consider a number of stories we have several co-ordinates & can travel between them & then beyond if we wish. As long as we remain tethered to one story, we are virtual cripples.

So why not take up your crutches & walk over to the Rebel’s place.

September 20, 2011. Uncategorized. 3 comments.

iron-ic t-rust

I reckon
Jack’s bean stalker must surely
have been named …


The giant’s recipe does
highlight a problem
inherent in
bodies of …

iron-ic construction.

Under the right conditions,
they can all too easily
be ground into

dust rust

Given sufficient time, oxygen, and water, any iron mass will eventually convert entirely to rust and disintegrate

I used to take the narrow view of rust …

.. until I quite-by-chanced upon,
a wonderfully strange love

Most people ignore rust, but I find it to be beautiful. I can’t pass up a piece of rust in the street without picking it up. I hold it in my hands and am awed by the richness of its colors. I love how the coppery powder leaves an imprint on my fingers, transferring a little piece of itself onto me. I save every piece I find and, over the years, have collected a whole bag full of rusty treasuresrusty link

This woman’s enchantment inspired a rethink.

So today we’re going to look at rust
as a whole,
& a hole,
& see what it has to say.

Rustdeteriorate or degenerate through inactivity or neglect

any habit, influence, growth, etc. injurious to usefulness, to the mind or character, etc.

disuse of mental or moral powers

to deteriorate or spoil, as through disuse: a mind that has rusted

The origin of this russet viewing came because I was concerned about truth – concerned about steering people wrong, concerned about a few mind-webs I’d encountered of late, concerned about the glut of trust in the wold.

Did you realise that trust is comprised mostly of rust

Recently I visited an idea-explosive website …

I will never think in quite
the same way

at the same time
I was left with a …

… strangely bitter aftertaste.

This flavouring became clearer when contemplating the words of a friend:

He who heals can also kill

In this truth-seeking arena there seem to be so many, many ways we can be wooed, screwed & in-toxicated,


  • Apparent insider knowledge
  • Scientific fact / anomalies
  • The offering of long lost wisdom
  • Information with a wonderful feel-good factor / feel-good presenter

I do try to keep my feet on the ground, but on the site that upside-downed my world I found myself doing a Goldilocks impersonation …

… wandering away from my centre & going deeper into someone else’s woods. It was a bit of a struggle to pull out.

In re-watching the amazing linked vid from my last wee post I now find myself unsure of the interviewee – I loved her ideas, but also there’s a feeling of wariness. When I look/listen more critically I note that it is the life-force of …

the interviewer that impassions that discussion.

I am reminded of how little I actually know & how many potential mind-fields there are out there.  I realise it’s just as possible that my work is a min(e)d-field.

It is well to remember that we’re all flying blind &
every ones work,
guess work.

That being said we return now to playful speculation via a circuitous route.

One thing that bugs me & seriously hinders play, is a swarm of answers.

Instead of feeling wiser,
I feel …


Let’s take the word teacher.

teacher “one who teaches,” c.1300; see teach. It was used earlier in a sense of “index finger” (late 13c.)

teach O.E. tæcan … “to show, point out“.

If you’ve been keeping up, you’ll get that!

As pointing out is not conducive to learning (& may be hazardous to one’s health), I suggest we amend ‘teach‘ & ‘teacherto what they should have been (& maybe once were),

tease‘ – (teach)

tease “To arouse hope, desire, or curiosity in without affording satisfaction


teaser‘ – (teacher)

To urge persistently; coax“.

A fine example of teaching by teasing comes in Linda Tucker’s book “Mystery of the White Lions“.

Her mysterious ‘rescue’ from lions prompted a great quest for answers & she tracked down the Zulu shaman, Credo Mutwa (I do understand people have mixed feeling about the man). Nevertheless his teaching/teasing method was phenomenal – he consistently refused to give clear or long answers – every visit left Tucker with more questions than it answered – she was shaken, stirred & teased but very seldom answered …

Thus she undertook a ten year search to find her own answers.
(As healthy questioning is being encouraged in this article, we also allow the possibility that the shaman was directing her on another level). Yet I believe the example remains valid.

Let’s suggest that the essence of teasing is what real learning is all about –
whetting the appetite,

making ravenous,
stimulating healthy envy,
brewing curiosity,
stirring up …

GRAND desires.

Teasing is a meagre but delectable menu that provides hors d’oeuvres only. The main meal (& dessert) are left in your hands.

So here’s where I wanted to bring in the idea of rust.

Let’s suggest that when we do not use our own mind-tools, cook up our own menus/ideas/answers, or create our own creations, then rust sets in:

Am I allowed to s-t-r-e-t-c-h to so a wild a theory as rusting minds?

Actually I think I can just about manage it.

We are ironic creatures:

iron gives our blood its deep red color

human blood smells of the iron which its cells contain

Given sufficient time, oxygen, and water, any iron mass will eventually convert entirely to rust and disintegrate

Ever noticed how the need for copious quantities of …

water & oxygen has been pumped into us by pointers experts.

What if mental-rust sets in when the mind is not constantly forged by its owner?

What if a mind can be rusted & brought down?

The description of rusting is quite interesting:

Rustdegenerate through inactivity or neglect

to deteriorate or spoil, as through disuse: a mind that has rusted

The importance of die-try iron is oft pointed out.

But are we a little too tRusting?

Q: You believe iron is a deadly substance. Why?

Iron is a potentially toxic heavy metal. In excess, it can cause cancer, heart disease, and other illnesses.

Q: Could you tell us about some of these studies?

In the 1960s the World Health Organization found that when iron supplements were given to anemic people in Africa, there was a great increase in the death rate from infectious diseases, especially malaria. Around the same time, research began to show that the regulation of iron is a central function of the immune system, and that this seems to have evolved because iron is a basic requirement for the survival and growth of cells of all types, including bacteria, parasites, and cancer. The pioneer researcher in the role of iron in immunity believed that an excess of dietary iron contributed to the development of leukemia and lymphatic cancers.”  Ray Peat~ Link

Greek historical fore-(or five)-thoughts suggest we are in the dregs of the iron age:

… in which humans are beset by innumerable pains and evils

The term Golden Age … refers to the first in a sequence of four or five (or more) Ages of Man, in which the Golden Age is first, followed in sequence, by the Silver, Bronze, and Iron Ages, and then the present, a period of decline.

Biblically, it doesn’t looking ‘rosy’ either:

Daniel tells Nebuchadnezzar that he dreamed of a large, brilliant statue or idol standing before him. This statue had a head made of fine gold, a chest and arms of silver, a belly of brass, legs of iron, and feet made partly of iron and partly of clay.

Then a stone, cut out without the use of hands, enters the dream. It strikes the statue on its feet of iron and clay, smashing the entire idol into dust. As the wind blows the dust away, the stone becomes a great mountain that fills the whole earth

Do we fall or are we pushed?

The Brahma Kumaris and Prajapita Brahma Kumaris make reference to five yuga in a single cycle of 5000 years in which the Golden Age, or Satya yuga, is first and lasts for 1250 years. Three of the remaining four; Thretha Yuga (Silver Age), Dwarpar Yuga (Copper Age) and Kali Yuga (Iron Age), also last for 1250 years each. A fifth age of only 100 years exists from Brahma Kumari souls called the Sangum Yuga (Confluence Age) during which time …

… the Iron Age is destroyed and the Golden Age created. Every 5,000 Year cycle repeats identically the same.

Hindus believe that human civilization degenerates spiritually during the Kali Yuga, which is referred to as the Dark Age because in it people are as far removed as possible from God

The history riters didn’t make it look too cheery for us.  Are we fated to walk in circles?

Personally I’d prefer to live creatively, as opposed to sick-lically.

Can we turn these omnipresent iron-themes to our advantage – is there more to iron than meets the eye?

Let’s take a meandering walk …

… on the ferric side.

Iron is a chemical element with the symbol Fe (from Latin: ferrum) and atomic number 26 … It is the most common element in the whole planet Earth

Iron has a long and varied tradition in the mythology and folklore of the world. As human blood smells of the iron which its cells contain, and blood in many traditions is equated with the life-force, so iron and minerals have been considered to be the blood or life-force of the Earth

We call copper “itussi”, which means the helper, the frightener away of evil spirits …

… but we call iron insiindi which means the evil metal, the metal of war

Iron: The Metal of Magic

Although not shiny and beautiful like silver or gold, at times, iron’s value was perceived as superior. The invading Spaniards noted that Aztec priests prized their iron ritual knives above their gold ones!

Throughout traditional cultures of Africa and Western Asia, ironworkers were, and still are, considered master magical practitioners, simultaneously respected and feared. Known as ‘Masters of Fire,’ they are believed to have access to the secrets of Earth’s womb

The fire was lit at about 4pm on a full moon night … When this was red-hot, alternate layers of iron ore nuggets and charcoal were dropped … through the chimney … A team of smelters would work through the night. …  Menstruating women were not allowed near the furnace as it was believed that it would jinx the process. The extraction of iron was seen as a birthing process, hence the womb-like shape of the furnace and the phallic shape of the tuyeres. A woman of child bearing age or a man whose wife was pregnant could not come near the furnace. The furnace could not give birth to iron at the same time as another human birth.

In the early days of iron making in Europe it was called the ‘Black art”.

of interest

iron  =  noir

noir, noire   n. adj.           black

 “In ancient Greece …

no iron was brought into the temples … Ireland, Scotland, Finland, China, Korea, India, and other countries have sever taboos against iron. Again & again in ancient rituals, fire was made without iron, altars built without its use and magical rituals performed only after divesting the body of all traces of the metal

The Jews used no iron tools in building their Temple in Jerusalem, nor in making an altar

Celtic legend also tells of a cauldron that was useful to warring armies: dead warriors could be put into the cauldron and would be returned to life, save that they lacked the power of speech. It was suspected that they lacked souls. These warriors could go back into battle until they were killed again

In Plutarch’s mystical writings, iron and lodestone is referred to the as ‘bone‘ or ‘core‘ of the gods

Speaking of which …

It is important to me that the Angel is rooted in the ground”  Antony Gormley~sculptor Angel of the North, Gateshead England.

“Kind of weird, inhuman looking” – quote from my son who has seen it.

The Angel of the North … is a steel (iron alloy) sculpture of an angel, standing 20 metres (66 ft) tall, with wings measuring 54 metres (177 ft) across … 600 tonnes of concrete were used to create foundations

Speaking of foundations …

In a July 1996 show which aired on CNN, scientist reported making a monumental discovery regarding the nature of the Earth’s central core … 

 … According to seismologist Xiaodong Song and his fellow researcher Richard Paul, the Earth’s core is a “giant iron crystal slightly smaller but more dense than the moon

Meanwhile 38 years earlier in Belgium…

“Expo 58, also known as the Brussels World’s Fair … was held from 17 April to 19 October 1958. It was the first major World’s Fair after World War II …  The site is best known for a giant model of a unit cell of an iron crystal … called the Atomium, which decades later remains one of the best known landmarks of Brussels …  it stands 102 meters (335 ft) tall

We’re told this iron cell, that took 3 years to build … but only had a shelf life of six months …

The monument was originally planned to stand there for six months

you can’t believe everything you’re told:

It received monument status and stayed on the former exhibition grounds for over 50 years. It is now one of Brussels’ main attractions

Strangely, very strangely, this beloved iron cell is mighty cagey – you risk financial dismemberment should you try to display an image on your site:

SABAM, Belgium’s society for collecting royalties, has claimed worldwide intellectual property rights on all reproductions of the Atomium image  …  issued a demand that a United States website remove all images of the Atomium from its pages …   There are some cases however where use of the image of the Atomium is not restricted … where photographs are taken by private individuals and shown on private websites …  as long as these pictures are displayed at a low resolution” – hence really bad drawing above.

While the world totters on wobbly legs, the home of the Atomium has it’s bottom seated firmly on the pulse of power:

Brussels has since World War II become the administrative centre of many international organizations. Notably the European Union (EU) and the North Atlantic Treaty Organisation (NATO) … along with many other international organisations such as the Western European Union, World Customs Organization and EUROCONTROL

This city seems to be the capital of everything these days

There’s a storm of change raging through Europe. It started with the end of the war and the birth of the new Europe, but it picked up velocity a hundred-fold in the last few years, with Brussels right at its centre. The new Europe!

If the seismologists have it right, then an iron crystal lies at the core of the earth, while coincidentally another lies very strategically at the core of the New World.

So where was I going with all this?

Well I’ve been wondering if it might be important for us to wonder about iron & the major role it plays in our inner & outer worlds.

It may be much more than we realise:

In one of Hans Selye’s pioneering studies, he found that he could experimentally produce a form of scleroderma (hardening of the skin) in animals by administering large doses of iron, followed by a minor stress

I apologise, I tried to leave that animal experiment out of this article, but it got stuck without it (if we were not so ‘pre-hardened’ these experiments could never happen).

If Iron plus minor stress creates a hardening‘ of the skin – what is now being done to the beings of this planet? This would include animals whose environment is being raped & polluted.

Sounds like an armoured attack.

What if the iron content of our bodies combined with today’s carefully crafted stresses, fears & toxicity cause the hardening, compacting (or arming/armouring) of humanity?

What then?

Well what if we are meant to be our own blacksmiths & forgers?

What if we are meant to use the iron within us for our own protection & defence?

ironworkers were, and still are, considered master magical practitioners, simultaneously respected and feared. Known as ‘Masters of Fire,’ they are believed to have access to the secrets of Earth’s womb

What if we are meant to keep an inner fire glowing red hot by using our minds, hearts & bodies on daily basis – never letting the fire go out – mostly keeping the iron molten & flowing, yet having the ability to forge implements of protection when necessary.

What if, when we do not use our own clear thinking & questioning, we allow other peoples iron structures to take root in us? And what if at the same time, our own start to rust?

If iron is a potent, metal of war then what would we forge?

It seems to me that what is most needed is razor sharp thinking to cut through the thickets of lies, deceit & illusion.

Perhaps we are the keepers & forgers of iron.

Or perhaps we once learned how to control it by keeping our inner furnaces alive.

Perhaps fear & stress put out the fire.

Perhaps without that inner fire, the iron hardens, we become rigid & our humanity dies.

Why is it that are we being overloaded with iron?

Flour, pasta, etc., almost always contain iron which has been artificially added as ferrous sulfate, because of a federal law …  A few years ago, someone demonstrated that they could pick up a certain breakfast cereal with a magnet, because of the added iron

To finish let’s contemplate the other side of this theoretical iron coin.

Let’s consider the possibilities of rust.

We do seem to have the must incredible, unyielding, structures within us – you know the ones we try & try to move, but they never budge.  Bridges that take us to the same dead-end places again & again & again.

Just supposing they were somehow constructed with/through bodily iron – then perhaps we could learn to use the forces of water & oxygen to our own advantage …

… & get rusting.

Foot breath notes (inspired by sundaemon’s comment) on deep breathing for your consideration:

Deep respiration interferes with metabolic processes in cells, causes oxygen starvation, eliminates vital substances from the body (sodium, potassium, calcium, phosphorus) to compensate internal alkaline shifts, distorts immune reactions and results in the accumulation of incompletely oxidized products and substances which come into contact with incoming protein allergens and can provoke allergopathological responses”  Link

Carbon dioxide is, in fact, a more fundamental component of living matter than is oxygen. Life probably existed on earth for millions of years prior to the carboniferous era, in an atmosphere containing a much larger amount of carbon dioxide than at present. There may even have been a time when there was no free oxygen available in the air. Even now, such animals as ascaris will live and be active in an atmosphere of hydrogen and entirely without oxygen”   Henderson Y, Carbon dioxide, in Cyclopedia of Medicine, ed. by HH Young, Philadelphia, FA Davis, 1940. Site Link

On April 26, 1986, there was an accident at a nuclear station in Chernobyl …  it wasn’t just adults who were inside the radiation zone, there were children too. People were being … anyone who could leave, did.

 However, Konstantin P. Buteyko acted differently. He told his wife: “Don’t be afraid, pack your things; we are flying out!” … How could Konstantin – a medical doctor and outstanding scientist who understood the consequences of radiation poisoning – expose himself and his wife to such a risk? “He was totally confident that everything would be fine,” Ludmila remembers, “since shallow breathing acts like a guardian angel and protects from radiation. So, we decided to go to the place of this nuclear disaster in order to help people protect themselves against radiation poisoning.” Link

These are some ideas to give you more stories to contemplate – I really think there is huge power in having extra stories as opposed to one li(n)e of hard fact.

September 12, 2011. Uncategorized. 34 comments.

The loving of breasts

Ok … so now
the men are here
this is so very much
for the women too.

My friend Paulo sent me a link this morning – what a palpable journey of shattering & remembering for me.

It may speak to many – (hi living tiki!)

This has every connection with the health theme that is in this place of late & will be continuing.

We know the feminine has been under vicious attack for so very long – we may now see why the breast was/is so targeted by cancer-mongers & very plastic doctors …

view to remembering

Thank you Paulo

September 4, 2011. Uncategorized. 18 comments.