the speaking woman

My mother is not doing well.

When she was awake & semi-lucid today I told her that one good thing has come from the last few months – that my sister & I got to speak honestly to her – what I meant, but didn’t add, was “for the first time in our lives”.

One of every five families is affected by serious mental illness in their lifetimes

I am going to be very grateful for having had the chance to do that.

There’s a sense of lost childhood, a grief and a loss at the core of their experience

I know so many have not had that, or will never have that.

Mental illness “drains off the energy needed for a child’s normal development. They’re often forced into parentified roles before they’ve finished being children”.

Omalone1 left a comment recently declaring that families should be called ‘victim units‘.

I lean strongly toward agreement.

While there do seem to be families that are ‘healthy’,
there is a hugeunrecognised number
of ‘victim units’ in this world.

I have stated both here & on radio shows that I believe that the Truth Movement is made up of ‘trauma victims’, or as we could now say – ‘remnants of victim units‘ … hey we could have our own tv show – RVU.

Even though I don’t really know how much my mother has heard me, my mind has been given a gift – it has been able to replace …

… ‘the mute daughter‘ pattern
with a new memory
of …

a ‘speaking
woman
‘.

Once you get over nerves it’s not so hard to do radio shows or podcasts.

It’s a different matter speaking through the strangle hold of family patterns.

And they are patterns.

Which takes us back to my recent articles.

The mind is a brilliantaward-winning, pattern-forming-system – it’s so good it’s to die for.

I think my mother is dying from her patterns.

Anyone who reads this, & takes the time to consider that our thinking system may be the death of us, makes her life-death a little less wasted.

I am crying as I write this.

I will never know what turned her into the personal-nightmare I knew.

Not so long ago I translated my growing-up experience of her, into a haiku-type poem:

tattered years,
frozen metal mother with grip of death
father looks on, awaiting his leave-taking

At that time my brothers & sister had no understanding of what her condition was – we had grown up with the phrase nervous-breakdown-slash-depression.

I watch her now as she is consumed by her mind. It feasts upon her.

Is it possible that our thinking system is also …

feasting upon us?

How many times have you hurt someone in the last few weeks even though you never meant to?

How many times have you gone round yet again in the same old circles you have been travelling for years or maybe even decades?

How many times have you turned to the tv or alcohol or sex or ‘truth-seeking’ to fill in the time or try & feel alive, just for a little?

Fuck the apparent’ overseas threats of Iraq, Syria, Iran, or Stewart Island (especially Stewart Island), NONE of them will EVER compare to the weapon of mass destruction inside your head …

… now that is the MFOAB (mother/father of all bombs) that you should be worried about.

… some time later …

How strange life is.

I am just back from
son-rescue.
He phoned while I was writing this.

His car wouldn’t start – it was cold & dark & wet & he had just finished a university exam & found his battery was flat.

Luckily I have a good deal of experience in jump-starting old cars.

But we got stuck – the two of us just didn’t have the strength to push it uphill far enough to get it out from behind a parked car. A young woman passed us, dressed in what looked like town-careered finery.  I asked if she would help & she crossed the street, put down her umbrella & dug her high heels in.

She was the magic that we needed.

I’m sure my son would have preferred to do it via a manly-solo, but in that situation it just wasn’t possible.

Just another fine example that it’s really not so hard for men & women to work together.

EXCEPT
when
the
Platosocrastotle Thinking System™’
has been
rammed into place.

That’s the one that turns mothers into schizophrenics & drives fathers onto their solitary (Jehovian Virus encrusted) pedestals.

When we constantly damage our-selves & each other, there is something wrong.

We have known something was wrong & we have used the only tool we had (the ‘Platosocrastotle Thinking System™‘) to figure out the answer.

Unfortunately we never thought to examine that tool: –

… the ‘endless search & inquiry’ which has given Western civilization its apparent progress in general … with only the tiniest of complaints that the one area where we have not applied this endless search 

… is to the very method [of thinking] itself

Here’s a random off-topic thought to finish this winter-evening’d article.

It is said there is a ‘set’ amount of energy in the universe.  Forgive the non-technical phrasing – anyway, let’s say that this is so & ask a question …

What would happen if instead of fighting each other & the world & struggling incessantly to ‘solve’ problems, we set about the correct human task of creating, just for the sheer joy & passion of creating?

Would that not mean that we were
dipping into,
using,
&
applying
copious quantities of that energy
in a constructive & wonderful way.

What if a by-product of that constructivity was a …

… limiting/restriction of the amount of energy available to the abusers of life on this planet?

What if every time we create, we take back or redirect energy away from these ‘destructivists‘?

Could returning to life be based on something this simple,
yet now so far out of our
near-brain-dead,
reach?

Do the children keep this world alive, by their non-stop creating?

If so they are the most under-rated teachers & farmers & physicians on the face of this planet.

If that is the case perhaps we had better stop ‘teaching’ them & instead start learning from them.

Hmmm … always two sides to every coin – only the ‘Platosocrastotle Thinking System™ asks which one is right

For me insanity is super sanity. The normal is psychotic. Normal means lack of imagination, lack of creativity~Jean Dubuffet, expressionist French painter and sculptor

~  ~  ~

For those who have suffered with mentally ill parents or siblings or children here is a link that may ease your mind …

Children, siblings, parents, are the forgotten victims of brain disorders

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June 19, 2012. Uncategorized. 9 comments.

Pod-cast upon the mind

The Owl and the Pussy-cat went to sea

    In a beautiful pea green boat,

They took some honey, and plenty of money,

Wrapped up in a five pound note.

They both looked up to the stars above,

And sang from their New Zealand base,

    ‘What the fuck, 

       do you think is up, 

        With the mind of the human race,

           With the mind of the human race?’

Yesterday Fitzy & I looked closer & further away at the short-circuit we call our minds.

Our chat was both a continuation of my recent article & a completely different exploration in its own right, as always happens when you boldly row where no one has gone before.

Enjoy!

We did.

Downloadable

Or listen to our podcast below:

June 11, 2012. Uncategorized. 14 comments.

Psychopates & the holy grail

Plato
is rightly regarded

as the …

father of Western thinking

Plato was an
out-
&-
out

  ... fascist 

It is not surprising that
Western thinking
has been…

intrinsically fascist in nature

~  ~  ~

Did you know that Plato & Socrates were Siamese twins …

… ‘joined at the hip’?

Plato ‘wrote‘ Socrates.

Plato never speaks in his own voice in his dialogues … In the Second Letter, it says, “no writing of Plato exists or ever will exist, but those now said to be his are those of a Socrates become beautiful and new

 Socrates ‘incubated‘ Plato

The precise relationship between Plato and Socrates remains an area of contention among scholars. Plato makes it clear …

… that he was a devoted young follower

Both existed long before masonic know-lodges

Then came Socrates followed by Plato & they created order out of chaos by making truth ‘absolute‘.

Together with Aristotle they make up the holy trinity of the Western thinking system.

That’s the system that is in the process of sucking the life out of your mind.

Let’s take a wee look at the Holy Trinity …

Although Socrates
came first,
Plato

… takes the Godfather position
because he crafted the words of Socrates
into the …

“Leaden Commandments”
that make up
your every waking thought.

Aristotle brings up the rear with his holy ghost importance, leaving Socrates to play out the pre-Jesusian role.

And he did that very well indeed …

going fearlessly amongst the people
& enlightening them
as to the need to find ‘truth’.

A good story must always have a good ending & Socrates had one to die for.

Pre-echoing his great great great great grandson Jesus ….

…  he sups from a holy grail
during his own ‘going away party’.

Sometimes history can seem a little melodramatic, but we must always understand the absolute truth of documented historical fact.

“[Through Socrates] Plato, the idealist, offers [us] “an idol, a master figure, for philosophy. A Saint, a prophet of the ‘Sun-God’, a teacher condemned for his teachings as a heretic.

 Oh bugger that.

Lets consider this.

That the Holy Grail
represents
our mind.

Considering his effects on our minds, how tailordramatically fitting that the Socrates Potter story ends with him downing “Hemlock

hem (n.)   O.E. hem “a border,” … from PIE *kem- “to compress“.

hem (v.)    … The phrase hem in “shut in, confine,” first recorded 1530s

lock (v.)   … from O.E. lucan “to lock, to close“.

Poison Hemlock (Conium maculatum) … Sacred to Hekate and evidencing a very Saturn-like preoccupation with borders … the plant is good for ritually paralyzing a situation

Like this you mean?

… the peculiar nature of Western thinking … we are so trapped inside this system

… that we cannot get outside
to look at it objectively

Let’s play further & suggest that,
just like the Holy Grail,
our mind has gone missing.

It was …

… last seen in action thousands of years ago.

By now you may want to hit this article over the head with a piece of (state of the art) technology & point out just how far

… we have come.

You will probably wish to declare that…

“… our thinking methods are pretty good because we have made a lot progress in science & technology & raised the living standards of some of the world’s population

Then again, you have to say that, because …

If you have been educated entirely within the traditional Western thinking system … that thinking system will appear complete, comprehensive & perfect. You will see the world through the belief system that underlies the world. You will argue about the world using the devices provided by that system

It is undeniable that our thinking system has made great advances in certain areas. Some of its methods have worked well.

But that really is just not good enough to justify its hold over us, thus my job in this article, is to jump up & down boldy to get the attention of your one-tracked-mind…

…  before you run into yourself on the past.

Because in comparison with what our thinking could be, we are but twig-brains rubbing neurons together trying to light a fire in a cave.

How far can a
one-legged,
paper-boated,
thinking-system
really go?

All the text in this colour, thus far & to follow, is the work of Edward de Bono, from his book Parrallel Thinking. I take no credit, he deserves it all.  What I am doing however, is borrowing his words to parallel-navigate a road that is my own particular passion.

I’m hoping these words & images have tickled your interest enough for you to consider ‘the thing’ through which you consider ‘everything’ in your life – the Platosocrastotle Thinking System™ …

there are deep-seated inadequacies & dangers in the system itself.. The system is inadequate. It is dangerous. It is complacent

… in a way we are dealing more with a religious belief
than with
information handling.
The belief system set out by ..

… the Gang of Three
is a belief system which defends itself
with the vigour of any religion

This inherited thinking system revolves around circles of itself – rather like an inflated ego:

Plato was concerned with order, rules, truth, absolutes & the boxes & principles which allow the exercise of clear conscious judgement. This style applies equally to the imposition of fascist order in a state & the imposition of order in our thinking

I am unable to find the page in the users manual of the Platosocrastotle Thinking System™ where humanity has been added:

based on ruthless & immediate judgement (yes/no, right/wrong, true/false)

sets up dichotomies & contradictions in order to force a choice

overuses criticism in the belief that if you remove ‘bad things’ then what is left is wonderful

uses adversarial argument & refutation to explore a subject

Recently a rather shocking insight came to visit – I realised that I have spent most of my life inside a court of law.

I’m not talking governmental or legal bureaucracy, I’m talking of my daily interactions with other human beings & the overall way I think & act

e.g.

  • Actions must constantly be explained.
  • Ideas & thoughts must be justified.
  • Conclusions must be proved.
  • Evidence must be supplied on demand.
  • Argument & counter-argument are the only option to …

hammer home points.

My particular style of writing is the product of a lifetime of struggling to speak & be heard within a court that has tiny ears, & a vicious emotionless backhand.

Look again at the world we raise our children in:

Plato was concerned with order, rules, truth, absolutes & the boxes & principles which allow the exercise of clear conscious judgement

The other day I wandered around my old primary school & I noticed again, as we all do, how small it looked …

… I used to buy into the ‘psycho-socratic logic’ of this phenomenon – that when I was small it looked big, but now that I am big it appears small.

That of course is poppycock & balderdash pie.

The reason things look so small to us now is because we have shrunk.

Once upon a time we were tiny-mammoths with gargantuan connections to life. Everything mattered. Everything was BIG. Everything was alive & so full of potential.

But, as I said, we shrank.

Why did we shrink?

Then Socrates saw his role as a ‘gadfly’ to get people thinking about things & to weed out sloppy ideas. It was enough that his students should start to question & to think. The conclusion did not matter

We were driven into our minds:

It was enough that his students should start to question & to think

Drive someone into their mind & it can be almost impossible to get them out again.

… the cave analogy of Plato … A person is chained up in such a manner that the person can only look at the back wall of the cave. Someone wanders into the cave. The chained-up person  …

… can only see the shadow of the newcomer projected onto the back wall of the cave by a fire at the mouth of the cave. Similarly as we go through life we cannot see the ‘truth‘: we only see shadows or reflections of it … However … somewhere there is this deep truth, & we have to search for it

So there is a belief that there is an inner truth which is hidden but which is absolute, ultimate, universal & unchanging.  Now we set out to find it

Analogy: … being stuck in first gear, with the accelerator pushed to the floor & the handbrake jammed on.

Our traditional thinking system is based on ‘truth’, which is to be uncovered & checked by logic & argument … The result is a strong tendency towards negativity & attack. Negativity is seen to be a powerful way to uncover the truth

What if the search for truth cripples the mind because:

Truth is based far more on what is than on what can be

The Platosocrastotle Thinking System™ anchors the mind into the past – into what has existed, & what exists now, because of the past.

Let me ask you a question.

How connected do you feel to the future?

Here’s an answer to a question I asked earlier:

[3/06/2012] fitzy: I find it blunted. Like trying to hear sounds under water, like I can’t tune into it

Let me suggest that the majority of us struggle massively to get a grip on the future because our thinking system …

blocks it out.

If your mind can only focus on what already exists, from where does something new originate?

Your thinking system will tell you that it magically comes from studying & restudying all that exists BUT The Platosocrastotle Thinking System™ has almost no generative abilities – it has great difficulty generating new ideas.

That really shouldn’t be surprising considering that your thinking system was set up

…by a chummy male threesome without female input.

Would women have consented to such a dried-out, sharp-edged, system of inhumanity that invalidates human emotion?

What has the cost been?

When I visit my mother in hospital now, I watch as she disappears in & out of her mind & I wonder.

I WONDER in capital letters.

I wonder about what caused her illness.

I wonder about the ever-lingering pain of my childhood.

Now I’m wondering …

Is unhealed childhood trauma the result of a thinking system that blocks out natural healing mechanisms?

I’m WONDERING if the Platosocrastotle Thinking System™ causes pyschopathy & any number of other mental illnesses.

I’m wondering if our thinking system is the equivalent …

… of hemlock.

I’m wondering now if the reason behind the expansion of the British Empire …

… was the need to spread the Platosocrastotle Thinking System™.  Once this thinking system is downloaded, people self-police & then they let go of the future.

When people let go of the future …

… they let go of their children.

When people let go of the future they create the need for prepackaged goods & entertainment, because they can no longer create them themselves.

When people let go of the future, their bodies begin to stall.

Somewhere, but I can’t find it now, I’m sure de Bono has suggested that by consciously using our thoughts via thought-design frameworks we utilise different parts of our brain & also different enzymy-type things, that might otherwise not be activated. Even if I dreamed this up, I find the idea very useful.

What if there is a “Future Hormone” that is only activated when we engage in the decision to create. If this thought has any reality, which I think it might, it leads to a question.

What have we done to ourselves by focusing so much on the past & by  dissecting the present into …

… convenient boxes?

There is an obsession with history … About twenty times as much emphasis is put on history as on design … the literary culture sometimes seems to be a culture of corpses with the bulk of attention given to the dead & the past

I’ve worked hard on this article to get it ready because I wanted to publish it as Venus transits the sun, I’m no astrologer but I figured if there is positive energy available, why not use it.

This morning as I woke & got ready to publish
I found myself thinking a new idea

that
male energy
=

 the Past

&

Female energy
=

… the future.

All this chat of the Goddess returning is bollocks – she does not return, how does the future return to the present.

It’s us we who have to turn back to her.

We are built from the past & we owe it all honour, but in order to continue LIVING we must reach our hands out to the future, connect with it, inseminate it – it is the womb that we embed our dreams & desires in, so that it may become our present.

The real present
is male & female
or
past & future,
combined.

The Platosocrastotle Thinking System™ removed human connection to the future.

I have been wondering if 21 December 2012 is the date that the Platosocrastotle Thinking System™ reaches critical mass & goes ‘live’ – the day that our thinking system becomes a self-propelling god unless we choose to return to a place of balance –

standing upon the past,
living the moment
&
seeding our future.

June 4, 2012. Uncategorized. 14 comments.