shearing sacred cows

Fitzy & I teamed up again last night
for a chat
& catch up.

We shared some thoughts
sheared more sacred cows.

Come & join us
don’t be shy,
there’s conversation enough for everyone.


Or listen to our podcast below:

September 23, 2012. Uncategorized. 5 comments.

if things go according to plan …

… I will be doing a podcast with my mate Fitzy tomorrow evening.  Maybe we will grab hold of Sinead if we can find her.

Time will tell.

In the meantime I would like to give you something.

I confess I am drinking wine at the moment so my heart may be a little more overflowing with human kindness than my usual state. But hey what the fuck life is for living right?

And life has been particularly challenging of late. This week’s barefoot water skiing over …

… coral reefs has reset my course once again..

This year has been an absolute shit.

It has also been the most important in my life as far as turning back towards life & correcting the misguided flight path decisions I made long ago.

I doubt I could have made any other choices back then. But it has taken so much hard work & unmerciful events (lots of the fuckers) this year to force & keep forcing, important changes in my flight plan.

Strangely enough New Zealand hold’s one of the worst records for misguided flight plans in existence.

As far as air tragedies go, Flight 901 was mercifully painless to it’s passengers, yet it sticks in the gut of the living as one of the most tragic of all time.

If you don’t know you are flying into the ‘gates of hell‘ does that make it any less tragic? And what of all those people who have to clean up the mess you make?

In the course of changing my flight plans this year I have gone from a mild-mannered, peace-keeping, harmony-seeking individual to an (at times) stinging scorpion.  I am sometimes shocked at the fire that has spilled out of me.

I tell you of my life not because I think you are interested, but because you might have found yourself on similar course-changes & knowing that you are not alone can be the best gift in the world.

I do think 2012 is a choice point, a time when you choose (or a default is chosen for you), your future flight-path coordinates.

You are completely free to die.

And 2012 has a stunning lineup of ways to die
on this year’s catwalk

with fabulous choices in mental, emotional or spiritual death,
or any combination of the three
as well as
full physical death & the chance for 15 minutes of post mortem fame

if you snuff it in a media-delighting way.

The other course you can take,
of course,


Did the Mayans know a thing or two?

Not about the end of the world …

But the potential end of self?

Of the need to choose
to LIVE?

You know that reversing of evil & live that gets so chucked about – well I think I get what it means now.

Forget about satanic, blood-curdling ritualists …

 is simply when you say

Fuck off,
I refuse to live according to the rules of death
family, relationships, religion etc.
any more.

Living is when you stop hiding from truth – real truth – that which you have hidden from in YOUR life, for only you know, how many years. TRUTH is when you finally agree to SEE what has been there all along & YOU stop making excuses for it.  

You accept what is there no matter how much you don’t want to see it.

How hard is that?

As hard as walking to an executioner’s block,
kneeling down & placing our neck within easy reach
of a man with an axe
& a willingness
to kill.

Seeing reality quite often calls for death. Death of a particular way of seeing something or someone.

Death of loyalty.

The relinquishing of vows.

There are probably hundreds of individual reasons why we willingly give up our life to the fuckery that is ‘loyalty’, and refuse to live for ourselves.

I think one of them is the fear of the pain we think we will feel, & cause, if we live according to the needs of our belly (see previous post).

So I want to show you something.

WordPress shows me just how many (or few) of you click on the links I leave – there’s a lot of slack bastards out there.

Watch the link!

It is three minutes & two seconds long.

Turn off your logic & listen
& watch as if you were watching
a myth or a story

Let the hungry part of yourself that wants to live, see that there are other ways of seeing, feeling, responding.

… For those of you who were blessedly innocent & childish enough to watch & hear that clip, here is another short one – translate it into emotional terms & you will give yourself a deep understanding of how pain is fed & maintained, then see that there is a different path you can take.

I recommend reading this man’s words in the youtube comment section for extra depth & clarity.

September 21, 2012. Uncategorized. 8 comments.

pharadise lost

Light-headedness …

… is a common and often unpleasant sensation of dizziness.
Sufferers …

should try …
reducing the elevation of the head
… and avoiding bright lights

You may have noticed that we live in a world obsessed with the …


that sits atop our shoulders.

During this article we shall be entertaining a view that …

… our head/brains may share a
similar design & fate
to lighthouses &
their ‘keepers’.

A lighthouse is a… structure designed to …

emit light
… and [be] used as an

aid to navigation

Looked at square on, a lighthouse is seen to be a rounded & ‘calcified’ construction designed to maintain life.

And yet …

… many are the tales
of lighthouse-keepers
who have …

gone strangely missing or
murderously mad.

~  ~  ~

The plot so far …

In light of recent wonderings about light & dark new questions have arisen.

Why has our light-fixated culture
so idolised
the brain
that …

it has
turned it
into a

… ‘god’?

Why in the name of sanity do the inhabitants of this planet worship

… the brain?

Why has so much time & energy gone into stuffing said brain with archaic thinking systems …

& why does this take place in
extraordinarily ritualistic institutions?

How can we have advanced so far & so fast technically, while remaining mutants at living.

Is it possible that by herding humanity into their heads,
our race has been deliberately
developmentally neutered?

How what where when & why did we get derailed?

Let us play

What if Eden was/is a habitat within us, rather than without?

A place that has always been…

… literally & physically,
at our fingertips.

Eden  early 13c., “delightful place,” …Heb. edhen “pleasure, delight” but perhaps from Ugaritic base ‘dn and meaning “a place that is well-watered throughout

Hands up how many just performed a reverse one and a half somersault with three and a half twists …

… & landed squarely on your (or someone else’s), genitals?

You went too far my friend. It’s not your fault of course.

As each of us was driven out of Eden & into our minds so too were we driven into our genitals – whether via insatiable lust or massive guilt, the effect was the same …

… we never noticed that Pharadishad just been intercised.

It’s time
to journey back & down now,
to the
Centre of Earth.

Underbelly  Definition: foundation

basebedrock … deepest part, depths … groundwork, nadir … seat… substructure, support, terra firma

All the while we have been imprisoned in our heads, the centre of our earthly being has been under assault.

Our contemporary Western culture makes the belly a cause for…

… shame and embarrassment, often a target of assault. Yet cultures native to every continent have recognized the belly to be sacred, the home of the soul. African dances …

… Japanese martial arts, Chinese healing arts, and the dances of Africa, India, Polynesia, Native America, the Middle East, and Old Europe have served as body prayers…

… honoring and energizing the belly to awaken the soul-power dwelling within the body’s center.

In the Japanese language, the word hara …

… refers both to the belly and to the qualities of character that emerge as a person activates the life force concentrated in the belly. A “person of hara” is one who lives with creativity, courage, confidence, purpose, integrity, and endurance.

Belly art,”… refers to any activity that a person accomplishes …

… both perfectly and effortlessly

“A grand belly” refers to a person who is broad-minded, understanding, compassionate, and generous;

“a clean belly” refers to a person who has a clear conscience

To “determine your belly” means to clearly define your intention;

to “beat the belly drum” means to lead a contented life” Link

If the head has been made into heaven, does that make our core, hell?  Is this the ‘hell’ we have been taught to fear?

The awe-full centre that is the belly …

… with its oh so scary
female-generative overtones.

My grandmother would often watch me from the bench where she rested, sitting cross-legged … She was a proud woman in whom dwelled an invisible force.

One day she called me. I came & saw a blackboard at her side.
“Come, sit next to me, I’d like to teach you an ancient craft. Take this chalk in your hand.” She inserted it between my thumb & index finger & went on. “Now draw a dot & concentrate all your energy into this one dot. It is the beginning & the end, the navel of the world“.~ Grandmother’s Secrets – Rosina-Fawzia Al-Rawi

Navel”  …  Considered a feminine sexual center since ancient times, and still in parts of the Middle East, India, and Japan …  Words for it in most languages have a secondary sense of “center.

Let’s see what we can do to undo the engineered male-female clash.

Let’s consider for a moment that both light & the head are male-type energies & the dark & the belly are female-type energies. Remember we are exploring & seeking healing – stay playful & we may go far.

We know that male-type energies thrust upwards, so this lends weight to it being the ‘captain/keeper’ of the head & its ‘workings’.

I think all women & most honest men would agree that the male energy burns hard & fast. It cannot stay ‘up’ for a long time, it tires & burns out & must retire to replenish.

Let’s apply that understanding now to the head – or more exactly to a brain/thought-focused civilisation that has …

… lost its footing

A ‘floating’ or ‘sinking’ mind [generates] unstable ‘ki’ causing bodily and mental illness, exhaustion, or drowsiness. Paradoxically, the best way to bring the mind to rest … is to first ‘fix’ it in the hara (belly)…

the energies involved flow from the hara, yet remain focused there, a deep reservoir and centre of energy, unruffled by the flitting oscillations- of a purely brain centered awareness

hara: … an energy (ki in Japanese, chi in Chinese) center, called the field of elixir … where life energy is generated, restored and stored that can be used for health, healing, or martial arts purposes. … some suggest, that Japanese ritual suicide by disembowelment (harakiri) is actually a sacrifice of a person’s vital energy source in the name of honor.  … This area is also the center of gravity of the body and is seen as the source of the body’s greatest strength

Due to the conflict nature of our thinking system, if it now appears that the belly might be ‘stronger’ than the head, great effort must go into disputing that, or alternatively capitulating & declaring it the new leader.

It’s so fucking sad isn’t it?

We would prefer to amputate one arm so that the other could be the leader rather than allow each

… to soothe & serve the other.

Please understand I am painting an extremely simple canvas here – I’m interested in suggesting a very w-i-d-e idea rather than t-crossing & i-dotting. Most often it is one-sentenced utterances or a fleeting experiences that create path changes.

So we’ll keep playing.

I want to suggest that we (men & women alike) have been frightened out of the wits of our gut/belly. I think it has everything to do with the engineered fear of emotion.

Which came first – the fear of emotion or the glorifying of the mind? Maybe it doesn’t matter, but I don’t think we could ever have had one without the other.

When our emotions come, they come from the belly.

gut (n.)    O.E. … The notion of the intestines as a seat of emotions is ancient … and probably explains expressions such as gut reaction (1963), gut feeling (by 1970)

This society we are attemting to live in, despises emotion. We are existing in neospanishly-inquisitioning times & the current heretical abomination = human emotion.

When allowed to do their job, I believe emotions make extraordinary digesting juices – breaking down life experiences, extracting the goodness & excreting that which we do not need. If we could learn to work with them we would not need to fear trauma – for no experience could withstand their digestive powers.

Functionally, the human abdomen is where most of the alimentary tract is placed and so most of the absorption and digestion of food occurs here

The gut is our ‘cauldron of darkness’ …

… where cooking & digesting of life occurs.

I am quite sure now that the shocking amount of mental illness in this world results mainly from forcing the head to take on a job that it cannot handle – we could liken it to attempting to make a male ejaculate/orgasm a hundred times a day, every day.

We have drained ourselves dry & cut ourselves off from Eden / pharadise…

Eden  early 13c., “delightful place,” …Heb. edhen “pleasure, delight” but perhaps from Ugaritic base ‘dn and meaning “a place that is well-watered throughout“.

The sensation of going to the hara is one of falling into a warm and friendly space which is somehow associated with the belly … The secret of going to the hara center is to let go of the thinking center of the brain and just fall into it

Yesterday my mother finally left hospital & was placed in a Rest Home/Hospital – it is horrifying to see the number of not-that-old people in various stages of mental decay – weren’t our elders supposed to gain in wisdom? What the fuck has happened?

It is very hard to be on the inside of the brain looking out with these ideas – I am as brain-centered as the next person. But we have to start from where we are & dare to look as clearly & inquiringly as is currently possible.

I acknowledge that emotions affect us drastically. No one has taught us how to befriend, harness or cultivate them & so they have become like wild animals terrorising our insides. Understanding how they work may help us overcome our unnecessary fear of them:

both emotions & thoughts flow in & out – they are two of our seas

Of course we all know that emotions affect people’s thinking. But it is much more fundamental than that. It is not a matter of a person choosing the thoughts that fit his or her emotion of the moment. It may be that in that emotional state a thinker is simply incapable of having certain types of thoughts. It is not a matter of choice. That thinker would be just as incapable of having those thoughts as a person who had never been to New York would be incapable of recollecting his New York experiences. The chemically (emotionally) different brain may temporarily be a different brain” ~Edward de Bono

Amazing to think we might have a veritable living-wardrobe of brains which we constantly change into & discard.

Edward de Bono has also pointed out how our brains work as pattern-forming structures. The patterns created have very much to do with repetition & emotion.

We must learn to re-inhabit our emotions so that we can design new ways forward if we desire life …

… as opposed to the jehova brain that now overlords us.

Returning to our bellies may be one of the most important journeys we ever undertake.

I had a little wicked smile the other day when contemplating the thought that the desire to ‘shove someone’s head up their ass‘ might actually be an act of great humanity – helping to bring the head closer to its true centre.

When you come right down to it all you have is yourself. The sun is a thousand rays in your belly. All the rest is nothing.~Pablo Picasso

Here’s a thought to try on for size:

It’s the ‘dark’ of truth not the light that we need.

Forcing truth into the light to be ‘seen’ & ‘proved’, has turned it into visual titillation. Truth must be ‘felt‘ – it belongs in the belly where it can be embraced, digested & embodied – turned into flesh & bone. When you know something you know it at gut level, not eye level.

What seems like a very long time ago now, I played with the idea that South America is the liver of the world. I also suggested that America was …

… its stomach.

I still think that’s a damn good idea. And so very fitting.

Like or hate America & American’s (I’m very fond of them), they have for a long time been the centre of our world

The belly is the commanding part of the body”  Homer

Perhaps more than any other nation in the world, we need America to get out of its head & back into its belly.

‘Stomach qi is the foundation of the human body. When there is stomach qi, there is life. When there is no stomach qi death will follow.” Preserving stomach qi is therefore considered an important principle of treatment

Swollen in head, weak in legs, sharp in tongue but empty in belly~Mao Tse-Tung

The reason for huge rates of obesity in America may be to do with this imbalance – a quasi recognition of having taken the wrong path combined with a very concerted effort to keep the people from returning to pharadise:

Overeating and consuming cold drinks tends to make hara awareness more difficult

Wanna see something interesting before we close?

When you go looking for the all-time-uber-super-duper-famous American movie you usually end up in 1939

The Top 40 All-Time Most Popular Movies in America (US Box Office)
1. Gone with the Wind

A jury consisting of 1,500 film artists, critics, and historians selected “Frankly, my dear, I don’t give a damn,” spoken by Clark Gable in the Civil War epic Gone with the Wind as the most memorable American movie quotation of all time

Why was it so famous?

Would a heroine by any other name
have been quite so

Hara is the seat of Life, the centre of intrinsic energy … All body movement originate from here. The strength or weakness of this area is the mirror of the body’s health

Just how much was this movie instrumental in creating America as the foundation of the light-focused head-heavy world? Using belly power to drive a nation & the world into their heads.

Now look here:

In Chinese, belly center is named tan tien, meaning Cinnabar Field. Tan, cinnabar, is the bright red ore that the ancient Chinese alchemists used as the source material in their attempts to produce the elixir of eternal life. Tien denotes a field cultivated to produce food. Taken together, tan tien names the belly as a field to be cultivated for nourishment essential to the sustenance of life

Scarlett vows she will do anything for the survival of her family and herself, exclaiming …

As God is my witness, I’ll never be hungry again!”.

Of interest:

During early drafts of the original novel, Mitchell referred to her heroine as “Pansy“, and did not decide on the name “Scarlett” until just before the novel went to print

& curiouser:

pansy (n.)   … from fem. pp. of penser “to think.

It wasn’t just the movie that became immortal. So too did its author 10 years later. On an extra special mission from the gods, a speeding Grim Reaper (Hugh GRAVITT) ran down Margaret Mitchell on Peachtree Street, Atlanta. The sacred tree of immortality is a peach tree.

As to Vivien Leigh, the actress who played Scarlett:

Throughout her possession by that uncannily evil monster, manic depression, with its deadly ever-tightening spirals, she retained her own individual canniness – an ability to disguise her true mental condition from almost all except me, for whom she could hardly be expected to take the trouble.~ Laurence Olivier – Leigh’s husband)

September 6, 2012. Uncategorized. 20 comments.