don’t look now

On March 31, 1987,
even those without interest in art
made aware

sol fleur

… of van Gogh’s Sunflowers series …

... when Japanese insurance magnate Yasuo Goto paid the equivalent of US $39,921,750 for … Vase with Fifteen Sunflowers at auction at Christie‘s London, at the time a record-setting amount for a work of art. The price was over four times the previous record

On 22nd December 2012, the author of toolonginthisplace read Matt Delooze’s breakdown of the highly successful Mayan 5-D Production.

This article
was inspired
by that article.
(see link at bottom)

Matt states that time & time again the human race has been coaxed, tricked & fooled into giving emotional respect to symbols. He states that it was the emotional attention we put on the symbols of the Mayan D-Day performance that was crucial to its success.

If becoming emotional over symbols sounds too trivial to contemplate, think about the last time you got wound up by something someone said.

What actually happened?

They simply opened their mouths &
made sounds come out…

open mouthed
… it was you
who converted them into
(& reacted accordingly).

Words are an example of symbols. Symbols are not the ‘real thing’, but we take them for the “real thing”. They are proxies:

proxy  n.

1. A person authorized to act for another; an agent or substitute.

2. The authority to act for another.

3. The written authorization to act in place of another

Whether or not you accept what Matt says regarding the origins of this emotional farming, his work stands firmly on its own two feet. There is certainly a consistent media drive towards …

n-ewe year lambs

… human emotion-rousing
in …


(with glittering sun worship overtones)

One of the tell-tale signs of the all-does-not-feel-right sensation is the emotion-plummet that follows these hyped events. What was ultra important one moment becomes something to quickly move away from, the next – rather like a quick mindless shag.

Do yourself a big favour & get familiar with that sensation of being screwed – it’s really rather important to know when you are being fucked with.

So I wanted to take you on a tour of hype beginning way back with the beginning of the recent sun-worship spectacular.

By the 1980s, … the New Age fascination with ancient symbols gained wide currency

Remember ye the 25 year count down?

When I participated in the Harmonic Convergence in August 1987, it was the first time I had heard of 2012

catching rays

The Harmonic Convergence is the name given to the world’s first globally synchronized meditation, announced by José Argüelles which occurred on August 16–17, 1987 … closely correlated to an exceptional alignment of planets in our solar system

According to Argüelles, the Harmonic Convergence also began the final 25-year countdown to the end of the Mayan Long Count in 2012, which would be the so-called end of history and the beginning of a new 5,125-year cycle. Evils of the modern world, e.g. war, materialism, violence, abuses, injustice, oppression, etc. would end with the birth of the 6th Sun and the 5th Earth on December 21, 2012

If we have spent (up to) the last 25 years being conned into sun worship …

worship    reverence and adoration for (a deity); honor with religious rites

… it might be useful to see how the …

film flour



… was directed

The Greeks, Egyptians, Mayans, Aztecs, and modern day Christians have all considered the sun sacred in one way or another

We really don’t know much. Those of us who seek possible explanations may be guilty of bias, that is why I love finding words spoken by those who see without seeking anything at all – what they say contains the innocence & honesty of children:

On March 31, 1987, even those without interest in art were made aware of van Gogh’s Sunflowers series when Japanese insurance magnate Yasuo Goto paid the equivalent of US $39,921,750 for Vase with Fifteen Sunflowers at auction at Christie‘s London” (wiki)

In our world most worship is initiated
by the


public announcement

worship (n.) … O.E. worðscip… “condition of being worthy, honor, renown

On 31st march 1987, van Gogh’s sunflowers were baptised with god-status.

The ritual took place in a hallowed church:


When you absolutely, positively
have to it get your message
swallowed by the public

You may be wondering “Why use such a trivial symbol as sunflowers”:

Sunflowers are symbolic of adoration

Also known as “worship”.

Sunflowers turn their heads to the sun … Sunflowers belong to the genus helianthus, a reference to Helios, the sun god

Many indigenous American peoples used the sunflower as the symbol of their solar deity, including the Aztecs and the Otomi of Mexico and the Incas in South America” (see Matt’s link at bottom)

Sunflowers have played their part in initiating other cycles too:

The sunflower is the state flower of the US state of Kansas

garlands of sunflowers

This Garland of sunflowers premiered just one week before World War II opened in theatres (of war) over Europe (1939).

Speaking of yellow flowers & hyped productions, hands up how many of were schooled in this poem:

sunny tracks

The Daffodils” is a lyric poem by William Wordsworth …  inspired by an event …  in which Wordsworth and his sister, Dorothy, came across a “long belt” of daffodils

Another tin man very partial to those yellow flowers is of course Bender, whose 3rd & 2nd all time favourite words are:

shiny daff

shiny.. daffodil

But I’ve gone off track. Let’s return to the opening year of 25 year countdown – 1987.

Nineteen days after the world’s baptism by sunflower, a shiny yellow family was born.

shining family

no, no, no …not that one …

the shining

this one.
(The shot heard around the world)

April 19 – The Simpsons cartoon first appears as a series of shorts on The Tracey Ullman Show

Well, well, well you didn’t see that coming did you? The Simpson Solar Cult. Did you faithfully attend the Church of the Latter Day Simp-sun’s every week?

Giving emotional respect
is really quite easy
n’est-ce pas?

And of course spring fields are such great places to grow pretty yellow flowers too.

April 19 is a heavy day in history“.

On that day two years earlier, the FBI, dressed up as fishers of men, besieged the Christian cult of The Covenant, The Sword, and the Arm of the Lord (CSAL) in Arkansas

The date of the siege, coincidentally, was the 210th anniversary of “the shot heard round the world” from the Revolutionary War. Eight years later in 1993, this was the date that the FBI chose to end the standoff in Waco, after specifically having studied the outcome of the CSA standoff. Two years after that, in 1995, this was the date chosen by Timothy McVeigh, in protest against the Waco incident among others, to bomb the Federal building in Oklahoma City

And now back to 1987.

On August 16th, the day of …


… the Harmonic Convergence a strange incident occurred. Note the girl-coming-back-from-the-dead theme aka the Persephone Effect:

Northwest Airlines Flight 255 (a McDonnell Douglas MD-82) crashes on takeoff from Detroit Metropolitan Airport in Romulus, Michigan just west of Detroit killing all but one (4-year old Cecelia Cichan) of the 156 people on board

Oh Cecilia, I’m down on m my knees,
I’m begging you please to come home.
Come on home

And here it is again a few months later:

October 14–October 16 – The United States is caught up in a drama that unfolds on television as a young child, Jessica McClure, falls down a well in Midland, Texas, and is later rescued

Jessica became the godmother to CNN …

CNN, then a fledgling cable news outlet, was on the scene with around-the-clock coverage of the rescue effort

… while Father Ronald Reagan baptised the world:

This massive media saturation of the ordeal prompted then-President Ronald Reagan to state that “everybody in America became godmothers and godfathers of Jessica while this was going on”.”

Just in case anyone missed the event there were special edition photographs:

The photograph of her being rescued fetched the 1988 Pulitzer Prize for spot news photography to Scott Shaw of the Odessa American

And lest people forget:

well well

ABC made a TV movie of the story in 1989, Everybody’s Baby

Of course we might rename it “Let there be Light”

The footage of McClure being rescued is shown in Michael Jackson’s music video “Man in the Mirror” and in the movie V for Vendetta

So not surprising then that:

On May 30, 2007, USA Today ranked McClure #22 on its list of “25 lives of indelible impact.”

A heat-warming story or a re-enactment of the Eleusinian Mysteries? The tale of the girl lured into the underworld by narcissus (daffodils):

The mysteries represented the myth of the abduction of Persephone from her mother Demeter by the king of the underworld Hades … the “descent” (loss), the “search” and the “ascent”, with the main theme the “ascent” of Persephone and the reunion with her mother

Oh Cecilia, I’m down on m my knees,
I’m begging you please to come home.
Come on home

Added to our list of females bestowed with Persephone’d status in 1987 is Ruslana Korshunova, the Russian model …

rus alka

… aka the Russian Rapunzel, born on 2nd July that year. Like Persephone, who was never freed to live her own life, Ruslana never got to own the key to her own door. Three days before her 21st birthday she leapt from the pages of her story & drowned the pavement of Water (Street).

Ruslana means lion …


… the symbol of the sun.

Ahh … the magic of fire & water

Alchemy knows a lot of opposite images, like water and fire … the Sun and the Moon … The union of these opposites … constitutes … the union of divine or spiritual energies with earthly energies

It’s hard not to wonder these days, if the extra-juicy-meaning-packed news stories, are truth, fantasy or alchemical concoctions.

it is uncertain whether Yasuo Goto bought the painting himself …

sol fleur

… or on behalf of his company, the Yasuda Fire and Marine Insurance Company of Japan

Japan was certainly the perfect locale for a solar-worshipping spell:

The Japanese names for Japan are Nippon and Nihon … Both ...


mean “the sun’s origin

Incidentally the sunflowery date of March 31st just happens to be the date that Japan was baptised / ‘opened’, by the West:

On March 31, 1854, Commodore Matthew Perry and the “Black Ships” of the United States Navy forced the opening of Japan to the outside world with the Convention of Kanagawa

A little extra for those who don’t completely buy everything the media tells them – I think you will appreciate the not-so-subtle nuances of one aftermath of the Jessica McClure ‘story’:

Paramedic Robert O’Donnell and Midland Police Officer Andy Glasscock played crucial roles in McClure’s rescue. O’Donnell suffered from post traumatic stress disorder and committed suicide in 1995. In 2004, Glasscock was arrested and charged with sexually exploiting a minor

I want to take you back to the SimpSuns – a bunch of characters who have never drawn breath & yet have become a serious part of most Western families:

The Simpsons is the longest-running American sitcom, American animated program, and … American primetime, scripted television series

has won dozens of awards … including 27 Primetime Emmy Awards, 30 Annie Awards and a Peabody Award. Time magazine’s December 31, 1999, issue named it the 20th century’s best television series, and on January 14, 2000, the Simpson family was awarded a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame

If animation is allowed such a free-hand in our lives, then a little wicked speculation shall have its day too.

Let’s turn our attention to most important member of the SimpSUN family

li sa


If in doubt, look no further than the hairdo that proclaims her the ‘star’.

You’ve seen …


… that hairstyle before, of course.

Time for us to play – it’s good for you, so don’t start groening.

Lisa (male) and Mawu (female) … are the creator deities, occasionally combined as Mawu-Lisa, an androgynous deity

sun & moon

The dual creator god of the Fon of Dahomey, Mawu-Lisa can be broken down into the male part (Lisa) and the female (Mawu) … . Mawu is associated with the moon, night, fertility, motherhood, gentleness, forgiveness, rest and joy, whereas Lisa is identified with the sun, day, heat, work, power, war, strength and toughness

In some versions, Mawu is male and Lisa female. They were said to have produced the first humans, seven pairs of twins

Lisa SimpSun got my attention in a round about way. Because of another Lisa that I have wondered about for quite some time.

A very hyped Lisa.

Yes you guessed it.

sun & moon

Mawu Lisa


Oops I meant Mona Lisa

Lisa (male) and Mawu (female) … are the creator deities, occasionally combined as Mawu-Lisa, an androgynous deity

But surely Mona Lisa is all woman!

Gian Giacomo Caprotti da Oreno, better known as Salaì (“The Devil”, lit. “The little unclean one”…), was an Italian artist and pupil of Leonardo da Vinci from 1490 to 1518.

… He joined Leonardo’s household at the age of ten as an assistant. Vasari describes Salaì as “a graceful and beautiful youth with curly hair, in which Leonardo greatly delighted“. Although Leonardo described him as “a liar, a thief, stubborn and a glutton” and he stole from Leonardo on at least five occasions, he kept him in his household for more than 25 years, in which he trained as an artist.

It has been suggested, as early as the 16th century, that there was a sexually intimate relationship between Leonardo and Salai, but this cannot be known for certain


A group of Italian researchers has claimed that Salaì was the model for the Mona Lisa, noting the similarity in some of the facial features, particularly the nose and mouth …These claims have been disputed by the Louvre

Salaì became a capable, although not very impressive, painter, who created several works ...

and roger ny

... including the Monna Vanna, a nude version of the Mona Lisa which may be based on a lost nude by Leonardo” (wiki)

But let’s not get drawn into the Mona Lisa hype yet again – we spend way too much time giving attention where we are directed to give attention – as another hyped attention getter/director tells us:

All the world’s a stage,
And all the men and women merely players

Speaking of being played upon here’s one that was made earlier …

lisa mona

THE ‘LADY’ VANISHES ( A story in three parts)

Part i: act i, scene i: Setting – The Louvre 1911. A painting disappears

Part ii: scene i: A Star is Born. Images of the vanished lady are plastered all over Europe – creating an object of veneration & desire. She goes from being an unknown “da Vinci picture” to having her own dressing room & name in lights. Henceforward the mere mention of Mona Lisa causes the ear to glaze over.

big news

(toolonginthisplace reproduction of original 1911 newspaper)

What really put a face to the name was the press coverage inspired by the theft. Every major newspaper in Europe covered the story, and every story was illustrated with a reproduction of the painting …  Millions of people who might not have seen it, might never even have heard of it, soon became experts on Leonardo’s stolen paintingLink

Act iii, scene i: The Prodigal Painting returns. The painting is found in 1913 -one year before WWI breaks out. The world is told to rejoice.

After its theft, the painting was exhibited all over Italy with banner headlines rejoicing its return and then returned to the Louvre in 1913

Lest the world forget, the Madonna’s ‘enigma-tic’ smile is sold down through the decades as the reason for her fame.

“[Mona Lisa] has been acclaimed as “the best known, the most visited, the most written about, the most sung about, the most parodied work of art in the world”.”


Adoration of the ‘Lady’.

Speaking of repeat pattern circumstances – have a look at her enigmatic thief:

Vincenzo Peruggia (October 8, 1881, Dumenza, Varese, Italy – October 8, 1925 France) was the man who stole the Mona Lisa on 21 August 1911 … aged 44

Mona Lisa’s name can be rearranged to make – sol (sun) mania.

Mania could be deemed to be the “effect caused by being repeatedly directed to worship that which we would otherwise not be inclined to worship”:

mania (n.)   late 14c., “mental derangement characterized by excitement and delusion,” from L.L. mania “insanity, madness

Mania & Media seem to be spelling cousins.

Is Mona Lisa a symbolic combination of male- female, sun-moon?

Ancient Italian   Contraction of the title Madonna             My lady
Old English                                                                  Moon

A feeling/image jumped into my head while contemplating this article – that the Statue & Liberty & the Mona Lisa are the same entity. Certainly the (not very belle) dame of liberty has …


… ‘strong’ masculine aquiline features.

Let’s finish on one other symbol of sun worship. Thanks to the bs sold as heart-warming rememberancing of the 20th century, most countries are littered with unrecognised sun temples:



sun temple


sun dialled


sol dieu


Try saying the word soldier out loud.

What do you hear?

Sol Dieu

translation =

sunny gods

Sun God

~ ~ ~

Link to Matt Delooze’s article: Who’s that Dancing in the Headdress  – “An explanation as to the hype of 2012 and the end of the world”

(It’s a free of charge download from lulu)

December 30, 2012. Uncategorized. 13 comments.

f i g f – part ii

When he gave up hope, when he believed that
all his efforts had failed and
would continue

no future

to fail,
he died

You can analyze the past but you have to design the future. You need to open up possibilities & then …

piercing the sky

design a way of making those possibilities into realities

The creative process has had more impact, power, influence & success than any other process in history. All of the arts, many of the sciences, architecture, pop culture, & the …


… entire technological age we live in exists because of the creative process. Why has the most successful process in the history of civilization been made to seem a mystery? Why have most people had such little exposure to it?

If it wasn’t for writing this article I might never have come to see that the term used to describe you & me may have had a lot to do with our undoing.

human being

sounds so good doesn’t it.


so wholesome & full of promise.

Actually if we look again …

being (n.)    c.1300, “… presence, fact of existing

… we find that it doesn’t hold any promise at all.

promise (n.)    c.1400, …  “send forth …  “declaration made about the future, about some act to be done or not done”.

Now we can see that there is no future at all behind the phrase “human beings” – only pre-sent existence.

Ahhh, English – what a wonderful spell-binding language it is!

the verb to be is … a verb of existence

the English verbs “to be”, “to do” and “to have” are very peculiar

Two verbs are normally omitted from Arabic … These two are to be and to have.

If I do the job I sincerely desire to do, then by the end of this article/series, you will (future-promise) have a new phrase to use & a cell-deep conception of your real nature.

All my work comes out of my own life. This journey is no exception.

A couple of months back while trying to understand why so many of my efforts to create ‘change’ in my life fall flat, I got an image of myself with tiny arms & hands & an accompanying sense of helplessness.


I found the image both useful & useless.

It was the sync that followed less than 24 hours later that made all the difference.

While browsing the old-but-not-quite-packed-into-crates section of a library, a book entitled Helplessness by Martin Seligman grabbed my attention.

I wasn’t overly enthusiastic but after my armless vision I felt obliged to take a look – you don’t snub a good sync.

It was the following story that made me look for a comfy chair:  Experimenters had created a pillow for (healthy) infants – when they pressed their head into the pillow, they activated a switch which caused an …


… overhead mobile of coloured balls to move for one second.

Almost as an afterthought the pillow was tried out on a:

severely retarded eight-month old girl … [who] had never displayed any instrumental activity or any appreciable smiling & cooing. Within eleven days … her activity increased tenfold, & she smiled & cooed vigorously when the mobile was around

That story did something to me.

But when I began reading from the beginning everything came to a halt. The author was justifying his use of animal experiments in the pages that followed. I found myself in a severe quandary. The book had grabbed me by a sync, hooked me with the tale of the little girl & now I had to put it back because if I read it, I was as good as condoning animal experiments.

I’m not sure how long I sat considering the situation. In the end I made the decision, even if it damned me, to read the book. I have since come to feel that the girl & the animals have somehow called this article into being.

I believe that what follows is hugely important. I tried to write without using the experiments, but got stuck. If you will bear with me, I hope we may reach an understanding that helps lead…


…  to the end of cruelty – & not just of animals.

I am going to suggest that the basic structure of the Western world (animal experimentation included) is based on learned helplessness & that learned helplessness is based on death. To move forward we are going to have to design a structure based on life.

Here is a very basic explanation:

Learned helplessness is the condition of a human or animal that has learned to behave helplessly, failing to respond even though there are opportunities for it to help itself by avoiding unpleasant circumstances or by gaining positive rewards“.

As I read, I found myself familiar with the behaviour being created in both animals & humans. In many areas of my life I have consistently experienced a ‘shutting down’ when confronted with certain events, without ever being able to focus on what was happening. It is as if some part of me steps outside my body & simply lies down on the floor.

Reading about helplessness has allowed me to become my own guinea pig over the last few months – giving me both an intimacy & insight impossible for any animal experimenter.

So, if we are going to effectively change the structure of our world we need to clearly see the current shape of it.

the shape of things

Btw, if you think you live outside this box, think again.

Let’s get clearer about the dimensions & cost of being schooled in helplessness:

Human infants begin life more helpless …


… than infants of any other species. In the course of the next decade or two, some acquire a sense of mastery over their surroundings; other acquire a profound sense of helplessness

Mastery has nothing to do with Western ideals of success:

From where does one get a sense of power, worth, & self-esteem? Not from what he owns, but from long experience watching his own actions change the world … not only trauma .. but noncontingent positive events, can produce helplessness & depression … It is highly significant that when rats & pigeons are given a choice between getting free food & getting the same food for making responses, they choose to work … Do hunters hunt from a lust to kill or mountain climbers scale peaks for glory? I think not. These activities, because they entail effective instrumental responding, produce joy

Not the greatest example perhaps but you may be getting the picture. If you recall the first time you rode a bike by yourself …


… you begin to grasp the overflow of life force that comes with working towards personal mastery.

Let’s return to the baby girl who called us to change our world today. When we change, create or invent something we are imprinting the world with our presence. Not only are we in this world, but it is allowing, perhaps even asking, for us to change its shape.

is all about
changing shape
creation, connection & involvement.

When we learn (are taught) to be helpless, not only are we severely disabled, but perhaps so too is the health of the world.

When we learn how to impact our world, we find even the disabled are enabled.

Learned helplessness refers to three interlocked things: First an environment in which some important outcome is beyond control; second the response of …

no future

giving up; & third, the accompanying cognition: the expectation that no voluntary action can control the outcome

Did you get the second point? Isn’t that interesting.

The response of giving up.”

Remembering that Western civilization & its religion are founded upon trauma, we might wonder what effect this image of giving up …

no grounds for this

… has had on the minds of millions of children, because ….

helplessness is a disaster for organisms capable of learning that they are helpless

Let’s get as clear as we can about how the Western world works:

A dog that has been given inescapable shock showed a strikingly different pattern … it ran around frantically for about 30 seconds. But then it stopped moving; & to our surprise, it lay down & quietly whined. After one minute of this we turned the shock off, the dog had failed to cross the barrier & had not escaped from shock … On all succeeding trials the dog failed to escapeThis is the paradigmatic learned-helplessness finding

The experiment is brutal. But lurking behind the brutality, is familiarity. The control mechanisms in place in our society are most certainly the equivalent of the Lab procedures carried out in the book “Helplessness’.

High on this list would be the ‘inescapable‘ daily ‘shocks’ administered via the media.


when an organism has experienced trauma that it cannot control, its motivation to respond in the face of later trauma wanes. Moreover, even if it does respond, & the response succeeds in producing relief, it has trouble learning, perceiving, & believing that the response worked. Finally its emotional balance is disturbed: depression & anxietypredominate

We’ve all heard the story of the slow-cooking frog used to explain the lethargy & ‘stupidity’ of the ‘sheeple’:

When an experimenter goes to the home cage & attempts to remove a nonhelpless dog … it barks, runs to the back of the cage, & resists handling. In contrast, helpless dogs seem to wilt; they passively sink to the bottom of the cage, occasionally even rolling over & adopting a submissive posture; they do not resist

What is the only thing that moves now with every new trauma, public infringement or assault on privacy?

The mouth.

Non-stop talk, talk, talk, talk.

If that is not helplessness I don’t know what is – isn’t it called gobbling in the turkey world?.


talkies turkeys

But again there’s a reason for that:

Helplessness retards the initiation of aggressive as well as defensive responses

depression & helplessness induced by uncontrollability reduce competitiveness & increase passivity

depressed people have … difficulty believing that their responding works … Depressed people are virtually drained of overt hostility toward others

If you think that watching the news ‘to be informed‘, is your ‘duty’ – think again. The media is absolutely vital to the instigation & maintenance of ‘helplessness‘ in our world.

Being told – particularly by someone “who should know” – that a given event is uncontrollable will create an expectation that the event is uncontrollable, even without experience of the contingency

This undermining of motivation has been seen with crystal clarity in a human helplessness study using shock. Following inescapable shock, college students sat & took escapable shock

helpless animals & humans … appear to have learned to be exceedingly passive

Sexual interest wanes, & impotence can accompany severe depression … these symptoms correspond to the appetitive, sexual & social deficits seen in helpless animals


[Rat] Mothers who receive inescapable trauma, even before pregnancy, somehow can transmit their fear to the next generation

helplessness is not a peripheral alteration of the response repertoire, but a change central to the whole organism

Watching the world does not equate to connecting with it. A superb example of the subtlety of our confusion lies in the following. We have been taught to believe that ‘stimulation’ is vital to a child’s development – as usual we have been looking at stimulation from the wrong angle:

An infant deprived of stimulation is an infant thereby deprived of control over stimulation. There can be no dance of development when there is no partner

When a person is exposed to a chronic lack of something, he also lacks control over that thing …  [the infant’s] sense of mastery or of helplessness develops from the information provided by the mother’s responses to his actions

It is vital for us to see & experience the effects we have on the world. Forget love – start responding to people. The following is required reading for anyone dealing with children:

parents should go out of their way to play “synchrony games” … with their young children. Rather than do things your child likes when the whim strikes you, wait for him to make some voluntary response, & then act. When the child repeats & intensifies his actions…


repeat & intensify yours … If this [information] is wrong & early childhood synchronies are unimportant, little is lost … If I am right … parents who go out of their way to “dance” with their children will thereby augment the sense of mastery that the children will develop

When we believe / are taught/ tricked that things are outside of our control, that there is nothing we can do, or if we try our efforts will be futile, something very dangerous happens. Its intensity varies greatly depending on the individual & the quality of mastery they have achieved in their lives, but here are some cautionary tales:

An 88-year-old man, without known heart disease, became upset & excited, wringing his hands upon being told of the sudden death of his daughter. He did not cry but kept asking, “Why has this happened to me?“. While talking with his son on the phone he developed acute pulmonary edema & died just as the doctor reached the house


A 45-year-old man found himself in a totally unbearable situation & felt forced to move to another town. But as he was ready to make the move difficulties developed in the other town, that made the move impossible. In an anguished quandary, he nonetheless boarded the train … Halfway to his destination he got out to pace the platform at a situation stop. When the conductor called , “All aboard,” he felt he could neither go on nor return home; he dropped dead on the spot. He was travelling with a friend … with whom he shared his awful dilemma. Necropsy showed myocardial infarction

no way out

The immediate cause of death … is usually heart failure. But, as we have seen, heart failure may be preceded by submission as well as by agitation

This final tale is closer to home. It is of a man we have met before & it highlights the awful sickness & waste of a world structured in helplessness.

In My 2011, I wrote an article called Holy Water. In response, Aferrismoon introduced me to the sublime works of Viktor Schauberger – Schauberger claimed that water was a living substance:

a well read but formally uneducated man who lived the greater proportion of his life observing and learning from nature. His insights and applications are so beautiful in their simplicity and in their application so harmonious with nature … In fact our planet is crying out for inventions based on Bio-technology such as Schauberger’s to become the norm of our industrial economy


In 1958, Viktor was tricked into going to America & then tricked out of his life’s work:

The agreement also included a statement which precluded any of Viktor Schauberger’s work being passed to anyone other than Mr. Robert Donner, this included his thoughts and knowledge in the past, present and future.

Although shattered by their experience Viktor and his son were not allowed to rest before taking the 19 hour flight home. Unfortunately Viktor lost his will to live, and in only five days after returning home on the 25th September 1958 Viktor died in Linz aged 73. Despairingly he repeated over and overThey took everything from me, everything I don’t even own myself”.” Link

As well as the media, I see helplessness being created by schools, religion, science, health professionals, governments etc.

The conspiracy industry is a mass diet of saturated helplessness.

Consider this.

Either there is a WHOLE lot of luck on the sides of those who ‘manage’ this world or there is superb expertise. Anything that works consistently well, takes the path of least resistance. So if you want to traumatise people & keep them helpless, do you

a. expend vast sums of energy & money creating real havoc?


b. spend a minimum of time & energy by creating realistic scenarios & capping them off with huge stories – like Hollywood does?

Consider this:

What if chemtrails are huge magic mind fucks?

whose line is it

… They may well contain crap but I sincerely doubt that what they contain could come close to the toxins created in each ‘conspiracy-educated’ human body every time that they ‘REACT’ to the sight of these.

What if the spraying follows weather patterns – so it looks as if bad weather is created by them?

I have NO answer on this scenario, but I do know that the helplessness being created by them is very dangerous to your health.

Then there’s poverty – the squeeze is becoming a whole lot squeezier. I wonder why?

How does poverty work psychologically to produce stagnation, hostility, & rootlessness? I suggest that among its effects, poverty brings about frequent & intense experiences of uncontrollability; uncontrollability produces helplessness …


… which causes depression, passivity & defeatism so often associated with poverty

Poverty solutionists also cause helplessness. Charity can be downright lethal. The giver may feel a boost of ‘mastery’, but the givee is endangered:

“... repeated experience with success, accompanied by real changes in opportunity, will be necessary to break the cycle of poverty. It is crucial that these successes be perceived by the poor


as resulting from their own skill & competence, & not from the benevolence of others

Hmm should we be spelling benevolence a little differently? bene-VIOLENCE?

When the lower strata of society are ground underfoot, revolution tends not to occur; when the people begin to expect, however, that their own actions might succeed, the time is ripe for it


How do the few control the masses?


By helping them learn to become helpless.

The good news is that helplessness
can be unlearned.

But it can take a bit of violence.

Either internal explosioning – like a good dose of …


nice napalming or being dragged repeatedly into facing reality & out of the quagmire of expecting to fail.

It was found that neither coaxing, kindness or bribery could re-animate the dog that had learned helplessness. In the end they had to cut a lead on it & pull it to the safe area, not once but again & again & again.

After about fifty trials the dog becomes nonchalant & stands in front of the barrier; at the onset of the signal for shock it leaps gracefully across & never gets shocked again

Unlearning helplessness requires constant repetition & reminder of reality (what is actually here now) as opposed to what once was here or what we fear will be.

If it all seems too hard
let me be the first to

kick you in the ass.

If there is even one person in the world you care about, who’s life you value, then you have an absolute duty to take action to re-connect with your future self.

Because I believe that is what we gave up when we become helpless.

I think when we are under severe attack (that includes the experimented animals), when nothing we do makes any difference, we become cut off from our future self.  When the enemy has penetrated to within inches of our very essence, & we can no longer generate a future connection, we have no choice but to lock the door & throw away the key, where even we can’t find it.

After that we continue as partial-selves, being, but not going, anywhere.

Three types of people have no future:

The dead

Those about to be dead (sacrifices)


It’s time to get off our decaying asses & get back to life.

A while ago in a chat to my son, he said something I never forgot. Btw if you look after your children, (& I seriously think taking the role of older brother or sister is far superior to the sugar-fantasied ‘mother’ & father’, roles), then your children may well end up saving your sanity.

My son said this


never give anyone your submissiveness“.

He is right.

Remember those who died from ‘helplessness’:

The immediate cause of death … is usually heart failure. But, as we have seen, heart failure may be preceded by submission…

I think submissiveness weakens the heart.

A variety of species – from cockroaches to wild rats, from chickens to chimpanzees, from infant to aged humans – seem to show death from helplessness: In the course of such deaths an individual loses control over matters important to him. Behaviourly he reacts with depression, passivity, & submission. Subjectively, he feels helpless & hopeless. Consequently, unexpected death ensues … No single physical cause [of death] has been assigned, but slowing of the heart is implicated ...”

What strengthens the heart?

What made for survival under these [POW camps] conditions? Most prominent among the factors … were “strong motivation for life with persistent exertion of will.


controlling the environment is powerfully pleasurable to a developing infant. Lack of control, does not produce pleasure & may even be aversive, even if the environment is stimulating

I believe we have to claim the future, it doesn’t seem to be ours by rights:

Being able to say ‘it’s mine & you can’t have it,’ is a developmental necessity” Gineen Roth~ Lost & Found

I think that if you do not lay a strong claim to the future, others can leech it from you. I am pretty sure there are future vampires out there & that this year, for the first time, I have fought them back.

much a deal about nothing

I think we can also get sucked into other people’s futures.

Remember death is simply a lack of future.

Being good is another way to guarantee helplessness. You don’t get to own your own creations, instead have to lay them at the foot of some benevolent person or god. Try telling them to …


… go fuck themselves, then look again at just how much effort you put into creating your life.

We need to shift from a destructive type (PAST/DEATH?) of thinking to a constructive (FUTURE/LIFE?) type“.

Religion throws God into the future – is that how he / they have survived so long – is that why they are immortal?

All gurus make you helpless – no matter whether they are spiritual, health, mental, philosophers, politicians. Why do some people heal from the most terrible of illnesses?

Because they create their own mastery – they build their own prescription & path to wholeness again. The problem is they think they have found “the cure”. There are NO cures & even if there were, they would make you helpless.

In every area of our lives from health to wealth to relationships to dreams – we are meant to create our own path & prescription. Undoubtedly we will borrow & learn from many people & ideas …

knit one, earth one

… but the final design needs to be ours
& the final fitting will only ever fit us.

Throw out your gurus, but keep a chair by the fire for the wise ones who visit from time to time.

What we have done … is prove people can work together, live together, & create together, not by compliance, but from commitment to build the future we envision. When people finish a building, road, well or a new garden they are excited to move to the next project. The contrast from now to before is dramatic

No matter what your problems are, for the most part, solving them won’t solve them. You will always have a new problem if you do not know how to create what you want. And creating is no problem

We have been obsessed with analysis but paid very little attention to design … Partly this is the result of our search for truth … The traditional concept is that ‘knowledge is all’.”

As I have worked with the ideas on helplessness there came a time when I thought ‘fuck’, this world is just like a Lab. All the absurd monstrosities that humanity has had to face seems so similar to the experiments that both animals & people were subjected to in the book.

I have had fun conversations about this with my friend Paulo. Play led to the idea that  the gods are really  …

i presume


The sun is the overhead light in the lab. Night time is when the scientists turn out the lights & go home to concoct their next barbaric experiment.

So what do you want to do?

Take over the lab. Maybe we’ve been there & done that time & time again.

This is where design for the future comes in.

Time to create something that we want.

we can transcend the consequences we have put into motion. Cause and effect are suspended. Past actions do not become manifested in future outcomes. The past, no matter what it has been, is no longer a dynamic that must play itself out. Not only do we recognize the past is over, it is no longer at issue. We are able to re-create our lives anew

Here’s another way to pronounce the word future:

footsure  “another term for sure-footed”

… adj. 1. a. Not liable to stumble or fall.

b. Designed so as to hold well to the road

.”.. “capable of winning“; “capable of hard work”; “capable of walking on two feet.”

My greatest creation to date, that which I am so proud of, that which turned my life into the direction it has taken over the last few years came from a lie about the future.

I played a game. It was a lie. A fantasy. Only once I had played it, did I have the ability / strength / courage to create it.

I would like to suggest that we ditch the ‘going nowhere’ phrase of
Human being
& rename ourselves
Human creating.

The future is not a place of hard, cold truth.

It’s the place we weave our dearest dreams.

Dream = madre = mother
it is the place that gives birth to you –
don’t you dare give up on it.

~  ~  ~

Text in this colour from Helplessness ~ Martin Seligman

Text in this colour from The Path of Least Resistance ~ Robert Fritz

Text in this colour from I am Right, You are Wrong ~ Edward de Bono

Suggested holiday reading for fellow human creatings – “Your Life as Art” by Robert Frtiz

December 20, 2012. Uncategorized. 10 comments.

the chess bjord of the underworld

Before returning to the future, I would like to offer you a different past.

Please note:

The following article may
or may not

phanta sea


~  ~  ~

Consider a definition of fantasy: … [it] is a journey … to a world so beautiful or wondrous that the traveler/reader wishes to—or does— stay.

the battle

This definition excludes mythology: mythologies are not about an alternate reality, but about the past of the world that we know.

Fantasy, then, is escapist, while mythology…

white horse

…is reality-bound.

This definition of fantasy … would appear … to include The Lord of the Rings.


But what about the author’s opinion? Both The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings are a very small part of … Tolkien’s life work; by his own account, they were “based on very elaborate and detailed workings, … 


… of geography, chronology and language.

Tolkien’s son … describes these works as “the central stories of the mythology” of Middle-earth …


The best authority we have on Tolkien, then, insists that the author viewed his work as a mythology.”

“[Tolkien] was a philologist and noted translator of Middle- and Old-English works … He does not say he modeled Middle-earth’s languages on ours; he says he translated them … [He] scrupulously presents his fiction as an alternate mythology of our own world

in the beginning

Middle-earth being its primitive ancestor.

Tolkien’s mythology …[or] T-mythology … attempts to represent the now-nonexistent text from which all the major Western mythologies were derived: Greek, Roman, Judeo-Christian, Norse and Anglo-Saxon … the similarities are natural because the T-mythology predates the others!

The Valar are the equivalent of the gods of Olympus … the gods of the T-mythology are, at the beginning …


… intimately connected to the world and directly influence the course of its events … Even the mythology of Atlantis is preserved in Tolkien’s Atalantë, the story of the disappearance of Man’s island home in the West.

… the very names of the Dwarves, and other characters [come] straight from Norse legends …

grand elf

... even Gandalf.

The two most dominant aspects of the T-mythology are very Anglo-Saxon: the Elves … and the concept of the paradisical West. In Arthurian legend, the King himself sails into the West and is never seen again; and in Middle-earth, the land of the gods is in …

gods of the west

 the West.

… in conceiving the T-mythology, Tolkien must have … perceived that the existing Western mythologies, including the Judeo-Christian tradition, failed to account for the world as we know it.

The T-mythology is not only the story of how coercive supernatural forces, both good and evil, came into and …

thawing out

… shaped our world; it is the tale of how these magical forceshave…

leaving party

left our world … As Gandalf says to Aragorn, “Though much has been saved, much must now pass away … And all of the lands that you see, and those that lie round about them, shall be the dwellings of Men” … The Fourth Age will be …

mun deign

far more mundane than the supernaturally-driven Third Age.

The ultimate fate of Middle-earth lies in our present: a world in which there is little or no evidence of the great forces of the supernatural that our myths tell us once ruled the earth. As Robert Foster notes, Tolkien documents “the progressive freeing of Man from the influence of both Valar and demons to …

figuring out

... work out his own destiny.” Link

It was only by constantly pruning the above & searching for images that I finally saw something I had consistently missed.

If Tolkien was really relating earth’s very first myth,
then the Biblical tale of ‘the beginning
is upside down.

did not leave Eden …

I can't do it
… the gods/God,

a dieu

Tolkien documents “the progressive freeing of Man from the influence of both Valar and demons to work out his own destiny“.

If I could define my writing style it might go something like this:

‘the cooking up tasty morsels that are easy to digest while delivering meals that are too large to swallow’

There is method in this madness – it leaves you, the reader (hopefully) unable to simply swallow down everything I say – therefore you must pick & choose & play with your food.

I believe myth works along a similar vein.

With that said, let the food fight begin.

Upon considering Tolkien’s works as our foundational mythology, I got to wondering about the choice of New Zealand as it’s silv’ry-screened location. There now exists a world-wide acceptance & belief-worship of New ZeaLAND as Middle Earth.

the middle plane

Ever since the first Lord of the Rings movie was released ten years ago, New Zealand has been known as the ‘Home of Middle-earth’.

The … style … particularly in the outdoor locations, where the New Zealand landscapes, in all their splendour, are revealed more sharply and clearly, and there is an almost documentary realism to the fable”.


Beyond a compelling story, a big part of what entraps fans of Peter Jackson’s films are the locations. Locations that happen to be epic in scope and beauty

Pick up your custard tart & walk fellow pixies.

Today we are toying with idea that New Zealand was not ‘chosen’ as the location of Middle Earth because of its pretty scenery. Rather it was chosen because it is or once was, the real Middle Earth.

Let me introduce you to some strangeness.

Most world maps proclaim NZ to be rather fate-ally located at . ..


… the end of the world.

Oops sorry wrong picture …

end of the world

There that’s better – hope you didn’t panic.

We might suggest that NZ is both the alpha & the omega. As a world leader in both  time & space, we are the first sizeable landmass …

first come

… to greet each new day.
As an example, Los Angeles is currently located almost one day behind us (21 hours)

New Zealand is a strange place. It’s like a small world all in one:

New Zealand’s native biodiversity is unique, born of long isolation as small islands in a vast ocean. The high percentage of endemic species…

moa -wed down

… (those found nowhere else in the world), make New Zealand’s native biodiversity both special and highly vulnerable. After splitting from other continents 80 million years ago, evolution on land took an eccentric course, leading to …

blue mush

… plants …

key wi

… animals and ecosystems so distinctive that New Zealand has been described as the closest scientists will come to studying life on


… another planet. From then, until the arrival of humans, it had the longest period of isolation of any non-polar landmass on earth.”

Now let’s go overboard.

The ancient Egyptians were an alien bunch, if ever there was one. They did things upside down.

They gave the sky to the goddess Nut & turned the body of the earth ‘manly’ – in the form of the god, Geb …

upside down

He can be seen as the Egyptian version of the Green Man

Nut & Geb’s first born child was Osiris.

Osiris was an earth god and the god of vegetation … Having inherited the throne from his father Geb  … Osiris taught the Egyptians how to farm, what to eat, and gave them laws and religion


When Osiris was a born a voice announced “The Lord of All advances to the light”.

However Osiris’ main claim to fame in life, was his death. At the hands of his brother Seth.

stone djed

And the most memorable particular of Osiris’ death, remains the particular part that is missing.

His penis.

When Osiris’ body was cut in 14 pieces, Seth scattered them all over Egypt and his wife Isis retrieved all of them except one, his penis, which was swallowed by a fish

So we have a tale of a green body broken into pieces & scattered wide & far.

Remind you of anything?

pan gaia

How about the once-great-landmass of earth that broke apart & was scattered across the globe. (Those of you who have been with me over the last few years may remember that I have connected a number of landmasses with organs of the body).

Try as she might Isis never did locate her husband’s penis.

After splitting from other continents 80 million years ago, evolution on land took an eccentric course … so distinctive that New Zealand has been described as the closest scientists will come to studying life on another planet. From then, until the arrival of humans, it had the longest period of isolation of any non-polar landmass on earth

Following my (continental) drift?

All in all there was something decidedly fishy about that disappearance

The missing piece was Osiris’ penis, which had been eaten by a fish

“… except his penis, which had been thrown in the river and eaten by a fish

The case looked hopeless.

Enter Maui Poirot

Maui was … the last-born in a family of five sons and was an outcast and hated by his brothers. Despite this, he accomplished many things including taming the sun, capturing fire, fighting death, and …

gone fishing

fishing up New Zealand.

Maui decided to go fishing  … [his]  brothers told him that he was not allowed to come so Maui hid in the bottom of the boat Te waka-a-Maui (the canoe of Maui, which is the name of the South Island of New Zealand). Once they were out to sea, Maui jumped out and surprised them. They refused to give him bait … so Maui broke his nose and dripped blood onto his grandmother’s magical jawbone. He then cast it out to sea and caught the biggest fish of all


Te Ika-a-Maui,
or …

lands of the rising sun

… the North Island of New Zealand. Legend maintains that Mount Hikurangi (Gisborne) was where the jawbone caught the fish. It … continues to be the first part of the world to see the sun each day

Aside from the ‘fishing up’ of NZ, we can also look upon it’s unusual shape & notice it’s erect stance before the ‘rising’ sun. Suddenly we get a whole lot of symbology suggesting enormous, well pretty big, significance.

Now hold all that in mind, while we return to our earlier idea of Middle Earth:

the idea of the Green Man … as the principle mediating between the imaginary realm and the physical world

Could NZ be a place where the two meet?

Let’s look at mythology

a myth is a sacred narrative usually explaining how the world or humankind came to be in its present form

Mythology is rooted in the understanding of how the human mind / brain / body / emotions digest storiesMyths lie somewhere in between fact & fiction & yet are neither – they allow the mind to grasp & expand beyond what it currently knows or sees.  Facts on the other hand cause serious constipation.

Let’s continue.

The Freemasons guard their secrets well, but some symbols have become well … known … [like] the black and white checkerboard floor…


… used in all Masonic lodges

From a site steeped in Gurdjieff (spiritual teacher of … who taught that the vast majority of humanity lives their entire lives in a state of hypnotic “waking sleep), we find the following:

chess … a way by which high initiates pass esoteric knowledge down through the centuries …


chess … was a conscious construct that represented the laws and forces governing the world. The primary elements of chess are time, space, force and material. The white and black pieces symbolize the cosmic and natural forces which constantly struggle with one another for domination. The chessboard is composed of 64 black and white squares which theosophically add up to 10, or one and zero, all and everything and nothing. The board is composed of eight rows with eight squares each. Eight is the number of infinity and, when turned horizontally, the symbol of continual return. Each game is a …

Benny & the chess

… microcosm of the archetypal struggle between Creation and Destruction, Good and Evil

Why do I bring this up you ask? Well …

each country in the world has its own country calling code … which you have to dial to make a call to that country

And New Zealand’s ‘code‘ is 64


chess is the mirror of the universe, some kind of micro universe … It has got 64 squares, same as number kodons of DNA and same as number of hexagrams in I Ching, which represent all possibilities for a human being.

book of chinges

… Every square on the chess board has a corresponding interpretation in the Book of Changes (I Ching). Moving any chess piece from one square to another is the act identical to the consultation of I Ching

wei chi 64 on I Ching “Things cannot be destitute (of changes) therefore wei ji is granted at the end

Wei Chi relates to … The end of a chapter … this is an especially dangerous time when all you have achieved can by undone through inattention

weigh chi

64. Wei Chi / Before Completion

…indicates a time when the transition from disorder to order is not yet completed. The change is indeed prepared for … The conditions are difficult. The task is great and full of responsibility. It is nothing less than that of leading the world out of confusion back to order

Of course we must ask just who’s order we are working towards?

Perhaps our entire existence is someone else’s myth.

Let’s continue.

So NZ is a coded 64. A coincidence? Of no import?

And yet …

At the bottom of the world & the bottom of NZ lies the city of Dunedin

dun eden

Dunedin is the most remote city in the world from London at 19,100 km

Turn the world upside down & small things seem a lot more significant.

eden downside up

I recalled an old movie supporting my notion that the world is seriously upside-down

The Dunedin skyline is dominated by a ring of (traditionally seven) hills which form the remnants of a volcanic crater“.

The hills that dreaming stand
About this town are seven, this far place
This godchild of Dunedin

Seven hills always denote magic.

Dunedin abounds in (quite deadly) magic.

At Dunedin’s heart lie a pair of beating octagons


Two rings to rule them all?

The symbolic meaning of octagon deals with: Regeneration  … InfinityRebirth … Transition

The Octagon was first laid out during Charles Kettle‘s surveying of the city in 1846. His plans for the centre of Dunedin included a large Octagonal areaenclosing a smaller octagonal space

8 x 8 = 64

two concentric streets … creating a ring of civil and public buildings

We need to turn now to the magic of Discworld to remind us of things too long forgotten – well you don’t think science is going to tell you!

Magic is the principal force … The force called “magic” is really just a function of the relative absence of reality in the local area, much in the same way that the absence of heat is described as “coldness.” Magic warps reality in much the same way as the real universe’s gravity warps its space-time..

disc 1

high-level background magic … occurs when a very powerful spell hits, creating a myriad of sub-astral particles that severely distort local reality. Building a house in (or even walking into) a region where this has happened is extremely dangerous as … an individual may not remain the same species, shape or level of sanity, as they were when they entered … Very high quantities of magic can knock a hole in Discworld reality, leading to an invasion by Lovecraftian monstrosities from the Dungeon Dimensions, or, almost as bad, the world of the Elves.

In the opening books, the number eight is generally significant and has magical properties …  and should never be spoken by wizards especially in certain places. Doing so may allow the ancient dungeon dimension creature “Bel-Shamharoth the sender of eight” to break through

Dunedin is an interesting name is it not?

In the Fourth Age, the Dúnedain of Gondor and Arnor were reunited under King Aragorn II Elessa

man of the west

The Dunedain  … were the Men who … survived the fall of their island kingdom and came to Eriador in Middle-earth … They are also called the Men of the West

Back to Dunedin. It has a brutal history. Insanity has been a key ingredient & whole families have suffered:

8th September 1879, fire broke out in the Cafe Chantant in the Octagon, Dunedin … More than 50 people were asleep in the building that night …  Most were on the upper floors and completely cut off …

the fire

… Of the twelve people who lost their lives, the Wilson family of Robert, his wife and four of his six children made up half the total

63 years later fire struck Dunedin again.

Seacliff Lunatic Asylum … was a psychiatric hospital in Seacliff, (Dunedin) New Zealand. When built in the late 19th century, it was the largest building in the country, noted for …


… its scale and extravagant architecture. It became infamous for construction faults resulting in partial collapse, as well as a 1942 fire which destroyed a wooden outbuilding, claiming 37 lives …  because the victims were trapped in a locked ward

The cause of the fire was not discovered

Question: Why have there been so many palatial mental asylums? What have we not been seeing?

When life is threatened in NZ we dial a very magical 111.

New Zealand’s greatest icon, Edmund Hillary died on 11th January – 11/1

Whenever you see the sequence 111 or 1111 show up, it is a great sign of a golden opportunity. Both sequences mean that a “doorway” has opened up

111 years after the Octagon fire in 1990, Dunedin became the “scene of the deadliest mass murder in New Zealand history” at a place called Aramoana:

Resident David Gray …  began indiscriminately shooting people in the township with a scoped semi-automatic rifle, after a verbal dispute with his next-door neighbour. He shot neighbours and a family visiting the township, and killed thirteen people

When they decided to make a movie of it (hey if it doesn’t have a movie made about it, did it really happen?) …


… an interesting spot was chosen:

This crib (beach hut) at 111 Beach Rd has one purpose: the filming of a movie about New Zealand’s most infamous massacre

David Gray may have been strange but certainly did not appear ‘evil’ to his neighbours. Perhaps I have become too used to tales of ‘massacres’, but the strangest happening in this whole event appears to me to be Gray’s dying.

Where is the stereotypical gloating mass murderer in the following?

At around 5.50 pm, Gray ran out of the house, shooting from the hip and shouting “Kill me! Fucking kill me you bastards!” He took several steps before being struck and knocked down by STG gunfire” (to be continued) …

Tucked inside the book Aramoana: Twenty-Two Hours of Terror (Bill Obrien) we find the following:

Gray … began a new life in what could have been paradise, in a tiny crib he renamed “Hlidskjalf” (the high seat in the palace of Odin, the legendary Norse God of War).
Julie Holden was intrigued at the new name & asked David what it meant. She was rather puzzled at his reply, “You’ll find out one day”.

We need to return to mythology & Tolkien before proceeding:

In a letter of 1946 Tolkien stated that he thought of Gandalf as an “Odinic wanderer“. Other commentators have also compared Gandalf to the Norse god Odin

In The Lord of the Rings, he is initially known as Gandalf the Grey, but returns from death as Gandalf the White

Odin … is a major god in Norse mythology and the ruler of Asgard …. associated with war, battle, victory and death, but also wisdom … prophecy, and the hunt

battle wolf

Odin sometimes acts as the instigator of wars … [he] would also


… appear …  with his two ravens, one on each shoulder

A little further inside the book mentioned above we find a picture of David Gray with “condor‘ his pet budgie perched upon his right shoulder. Symbolism does not require perfection.

Beside the second root [of Yggdrasil]  … flowed  the fountain of Mimir, in which all wisdom dwelt & from which Odin himself desired to drink even though the price demanded for a few draughts was the loss of an eye~New Larousse Encyclopedia of Mythology

Now we continue with Gray’s death:

Gray was hit five times: in the eye, neck, chest and twice in the groin. Even with these injuries, he struggled fiercely against police, breaking free of plastic handcuffs before being re-handcuffed, while berating police for not having killed him. Ambulance officers treated him at the scene and on the way to Dunedin hospital … but … at 6:10 Gray died

What an extra-ordinary shot – in the eye … & still he lived on for 20 minutes.

Other names for Odin include:

One Eyed … Grey Beard … Lord of the undead

Of interest:

Odin  … the chief god of Norse mythology, was referred to by more than 200 names

(think of the roles enacted by our hi-story-cal players:

Spearman, Spear Master, spear charger  (= Shakespeare?)


Hooded, Masked One (Batman or any of the many masked ‘heroes’)

Hanged One (Jesus?)

Father of Hosts (God)

O dear

Ripper (Jack the)

Iron Mask (The man in)

Sleep bringer (Hollywood?)

Four years later another mass killing took place in Dunedin – the script sounding as if it came from a super-hero comic book.

every st

When I first found the article about Tolkien’s work that begins this article, my mind turned mainly to Norse mythology & it was that that I focused on in my re-searching of NZ.

The end days of Norse mythology are known as Ragnarok. Odin goes out with a bang when Fenrir the giant wolf finally breaks free & eats him for breakfast (understandable really if you’d been chained up for an eternity).

As usual the gods fear anything stronger than themselves, & so sought to bind the great wolf. No chain could hold him, so they resorted to magic:


They ordered the dwarves to make something so strong that it could hold the wolf. The result was a soft, thin ribbon: Gleipnir

Gleipnir the unbreakable bond was made from six impossible things. Lewis Carroll’s queen had a good grip on the unbreakable bonds of belief:

Why, sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.

Breakfast = break + fast

fast (adj.)   O.E. fæst “firmly fixedsecure, enclosed

The six impossible components of Gleipnir were as follows:

the beard of a woman
the roots of a mountain
the footstep of a cat
the breath of fishes
the sinews of a bear
the spit of birds

If we are living in end times, or perhaps we should say times of great change,
we might expect to see
that magical bond

On the last day of 1969, on the West Coast of The South Island of NZ, a young woman named Jennifer Mary Beard died under a bridge. It has always been presumed murder:

January 3 1970 on a hot summers day in South Westland, a family of five from Oamaru was crossing the Haast River Bridge. The 8-year-old daughter … needed to go the toilet, so … the girl headed for the privacy of the bushes underneath the bridge. On her return to the vehicle, she said, “Daddy, there’s a lady lying near the stream. She hasn’t got any clothes on. I think she is asleep.

jenny wren

The little girl, if the story is to be believed, was not believed. Jennifer’s body lay there until January 16th, alternately baked in the summer heat & washed over by the river – the state of decomposition of the body not only traumatised police but also made the true cause of death impossible to establish. The search for a murderer was epic & nationwide. The case was never solved.

But looked at from a different angle we could say that through that event, one component of the Glepinir gestalt was dissolved.

The beard of a woman‘.

The Haast Pass road follows an ancient trail used by Maori … The name for the trail is Tiora-patea, meaning “The way is clear

Another further loosening of that bond could be seen in the Aramoana massacre.

The spit of birds

Aramoana, also known as “The Spit” to locals“.”

Directly across from Aramoana lies Taiaroa Head:

Taiaroa Head is alive with wildlife species, many of them scarce nesting seabirds, with the jewel in the crown being the Northern Royal Albatross


 “… the world’s only mainland nesting place for Northern Royal Albatross

Then we have:

“The breath of fishes”:

pike … is a species of carnivorous fish


The Pike River Mine disaster was a coal mining accident that began on 19 November 2010 in the Pike River Mine … northeast of Greymouth, in the West Coast Region of New Zealand’s South Island … The initial explosion damaged the mine’s gas drainage line, causing methane gas to begin accumulating in the mine immediately

on 24 November it was reported that a drill …  had reached to the mine chamber, releasing hot gas. Later in the day it was reported analysis showed 95% methane. A camera, inserted into a safe haven in the mine, found no evidence of human activity


The breath of that fish was lethal.

Russian mythology holds that the pike is one of several forms assumed by evil water spirits

And how about:

The roots of a mountain“:

Mount Ruapehu was used in the Lord of the Ring movies. It was known as Mount Doom and was where the infamous ring was created

It was not permitted to film the summit of Ngauruhoe because the Māori hold it to be sacred. However, some scenes on the slopes of Mount Doom were filmed on the slopes of Ruapehu

root verb   to extirpate; exterminate; remove completely

On Christmas eve 1953, the day after the newly crowned Queen Elizabeth stepped onto NZ’s shores for the very first time …

New Zealanders have developed a superstition about visits by Queen Elizabeth to this country, as many more serious disasters have taken place while she was here“

… Mt Doom aka Mt Ruapehu, slipped & lost its footing:

The Tangiwai disaster occurred at 22:21 on 24 December 1953 when the Whangaehu River bridge collapsed beneath a Wellington to Auckland express train at Tangiwai on New Zealand’s North Island. With 11 carriages carrying 285 passengers and crew, 151 people died, making it the worst ever rail accident in New Zealand.


 the accident had been due to a lahar — a mudflow from the Mount Ruapehu volcano — of an unforeseeable magnitude that had removed a bridge pier minutes before the train started to cross

… I could go on but I’m tired … but you get the gist, I’m sure.

This article has been a fanciful quest. Yet I am by no means sure that it is fantasy. Personally I feel it is far healthier to hold possibilities, rather than somebody else’s ‘answers‘, in mind – it leaves so much more room for you to manoeuver.

We are by no means stuck. Never have been. Except in our minds.

So let’s wrap this up:

Mount Doom … represents the endpoint of Frodo Baggins’ quest to destroy the Ring … The chasm is the site where the One Ring was originally forged by the Dark Lord Sauron and the only place it can be unmade

So it interests me that a number of movies have been made back to front.

Twin Peaks did it, Star Wars did it too & now the Hobbit.

First they unmade the Ring & now they will refashion it. Does that not seem strange?

Are movies RE-forging magic, setting the past in motion for yet another repeat twirl round the merry-go-round?

Nothing on the Disc[world] can exist without a Story first existing to mold its destiny and determine its form

In the original research I did for this article I came across a book of interviews with many of the LOTR stars – most interesting was the consistent reference to the New Zealander Peter Jackson as a Hobbit.

And a little something extra:

In Norse mythology, Frigg or Frigga was said to be “foremost among the goddesses,” the wife of Odin, queen of the Aesir … [she]  is the only one other than Odin who is permitted to sit on his high seat Hlidskjalf and look out over the universe


It is said that she enjoyed sitting at her spinning wheel, in the heavenly realm of Asgard … where she would spin golden thread or weave coloured clouds

Aotearoa … is the most widely known and accepted Māori name for New Zealand … The common translation is “the land of the long white cloud

The bones of this article have been sitting on my computer for over two & a half years. The time never felt right. With the release of the Hobbit from his hutch in Wellington & the approach of Dec 21st, it seemed appropriate.

I offer no answers with this article, just alternate ways of seeing & breathing. It’s medicinal, fantastical, playful & serious. Don’t let yourself be suffocated by facts.

The feeling strongest in me now, is that we have to choose our own future.

the progressive freeing of Man … to work out his own destiny

And that requires relinquishing the past. Perhaps Dec 21 is a choice point, perhaps it wasn’t meant to be, but has been made so by all the emotion attached to it.

Do you want to live the past again?

I have come to realise over this past week, that I shall never, ever be recompensed for my past. Not one moment of suffering or hardship will ever be ‘made right’. No reward is ever, ever coming. But actually that’s not so bad, because it means I too can walk away from it.

Whatever we’ve been through is done.

my teacher … once told me that I spent the first fifty years of my life protecting myself from losses that had already happened. As if living with hypervigilance in the present could protect me from the assorted addictions, abuses, & abandonments that populated my early years on the planet~ Gineen Roth

I hope to bring you the last part of future imperative before ‘ascension day’ : )

Till then, as my friend Fitzy would say”

Chill the fuck out“.

This article has been written from my home in Auckland.

Sorry I meant …

“Orc Land’

December 14, 2012. Uncategorized. 11 comments.

future imperative grand finale – part i

perhaps we are only a shadow of our future self


… the subtle persistent force that nags at our consciousness – to be a creator, one who brings into existence creations that previously lived only in one’s innermost dimensions~ Robert Fritz

As I begin writing this article it is
1st Dec, 2012 –
a month that has pre-haunted
many a consciousness,
for many a year.

The month of cataclysm-ascension-transformation-annihilation depending upon which flavour …


… of Mayannaise guessing
you prefer.

Before stepping into this amayazing new life/death, perhaps we might take one last walk down reality lane – just to make sure we haven’t missed anything.

There are few possibilities for the future. One is slow decline …”

The paradox is that as we move forward into the future there is more need for change than ever, yet there is less room for change because everything is locked into position

Consequently, you expect to be helpless in the future … a conscious expectation that is the last link in the chain, the one triggering depression

Bugger, maybe not!

Please make your way smartly …

run away

… to the nearest emayagency exit.

… Well perhaps we have time for one small question.

Is it possible that,
because of our fixation
on the past,
our future selves

now where  did i leave it

 lost sight of us?

Culturally we are so obsessed with history that at times there does seem to be a ‘culture of corpses‘ … In essence we are positioned by our ancestors

It is possible that we have all but abdicated our right to a future?


God save the queen
The fascist regime
They made you a moron
Potential H-bomb

There’s no future, no future,
No future for you
God save the queen

We’re the flowers in the dustbin
We’re the poison in your human machine…
No future, no future
no future for you

For those not familiar with the above lyrics:

God Save the Queen” is a song by the English punk rock band Sex Pistols … The song was released during Queen Elizabeth II’s Silver Jubilee in 1977 … The song peaked at number 2 … though there have been persistent rumours … that it was actually the biggest-selling single in the UK at the time … In 2012 it was announced that the single would be re-released on 28 May 2012, coinciding with the 35th anniversary of the original release and the Diamond Jubilee of Elizabeth II

jolly good show

… The song could be heard during Journey along the Thames, a two-minute film … played at the beginning of the 2012 Summer Olympics opening ceremony, an event opened by the Queen, and held during her Diamond Jubilee

Hey call it anarchy & who’s gonna see a formidable ritual – worship of the hive leader (God save the queen IS the title) complete with abdication of the future.

Of interest:

Sid Vicious was born John Simon Ritchie … Ritchie’s father … was a guardsman at Buckingham Palace

Ah conspiracy is so damn intriguing … but we better get back to reality.

We need to shift from an obsession with history to a concern for the future

Yep, we do really need to do that –
if we are going to have one,
that is.

Let’s look back one last time.

look back

What do you

I see a race of homo sapiens … waiting

Waiting for …

he'll come again

to come back.

Waiting for the next life,

pearly gates

when rewards


will be

virgin lines

… plentiful
(to make up for the suffering in this one)

Waiting for the
to be


… uncovered / discovered …

figuring out the past

… revealed

Waiting for ‘things’ to get better

Waiting for the next bill / disaster / loss

Waiting for the big lotto win

Waiting for the ‘right time’ to begin living

Waiting for the right
man / woman

Waiting for …


extra-terrestrial contact

Waiting for
the ‘big day’
in 2012


Let me remind you about waiting:



wait  stay where one is or delay action until a particular time or until something else happens

waiting water

to remain inactive  … until something expected happens

In the spaces in between waiting,
I see a race of homo sapiens …


… writhing in pain

That unfortunately is only natural for a species that has abandoned its…


to the future.

Where & how did this idiocy happen?

It’s hard to say.

Perhaps it came about when the future was removed from of the earth & placed on high.

Religion did it through their sky gods & heavenly after-lifes.

The West did it through its
worship of
all kinds of …


as symbols of
a shiny …

the future is looking up

… ‘bright future’ …

Ever noticed how the future is always


… ‘a head

out in space

… out in space.

So it may surprise (or dismay) you to learn that the future is very much closer to hand.

To your hand(s).

Like pretty much everything we have been supplied with, the directions we live by are arse about face.

The future, of course, was never ‘out there’.

it is located
in your

The place where the future & most life, begins.


Try this on for size:

The future is a moist, dark, fertile, desire-impregnable place that requires constant connection with us.

promised us

Prometheus’ punishment for giving fire to mankind, was the loss of his future (his belly) – chained to a rock & going nowhere, each day an eagle would come & eat out his liver. The liver is the only internal organ which can re-grow itself – now that’s an amazing connection to the future.

In the beginning was the future,
not the word.

Awhile ago I came up with an image that I felt expressed the dynamics of creating as I had experienced them in my own life & then had understood them through the ideas of structural tension by Robert Fritz.

Keep paying attention – it matters, because creating & the future are soul-mates:

The space between the desired and actual states [of creation] is not the absence of something, it is the presence of a powerful tension that propels the creative process toward resolution.

The following is an excerpt from a continuing series of mysteries.

Here’s an inchworm doing structural tension.

He has feet at the front & feet at the back – so he’s grounded in where he wants to go & where he is right now.

But in his middle bit there are no feet –

it’s a bit like that part is empty space –
that is the
place & space
that will allow the birth of
his chosen future

There was no thought of the location of the future when I wrote that. Only later did I see the story it told – that the future is, & always has been, housed in the middle of us – in our bellies.

The ‘future’ never, ever
out there‘.

The belly is the seat of the inner world, of darkness & of the unconscious, but also of life & emotions. It is the opposite of the breast & head, which symbolize consciousness, the outside world & light~ Grandmother’s Secrets-Rosina-Fawzia Al-Rawi


If you understood that the future was at the centre of your world, would you stop to give it the time of day?

Maybe you have been too busy being in the now.

If I was living in the now, you would not be reading this article, I’d be too busy ummm … just being.

Instead I am working with an amazing tension – one stretching back many weeks & stretching forward until my stats show me that this work has found a new home within a few open minds.

It’s not about fame, it’s about connecting. It’s about the desire to live & the wish that others live too. It’s about creating the future, instead of having it pre-packaged for us.

Let me suggest that the extra-extraordinary growth/learning of children is a direct result of their DEEP connection to the future. They may live ‘in the moment’ but their feet are forever paddling in the future. I remember being eight years old, looking at my new-born baby brother & thinking there was NO WAY he would ever walk or talk. He surprised me & very quickly too.


Why do we keep digging up the past, instead of ploughing & seeding the future?

Another possibility is that of a new Renaissance, one on which people are involved with their lives, their growth, & their own continuing learning in the creative process. This is different ground than we have seen before. We cannot use our old assumptions, values, biases, premises, or structures. But neither can we change if we are motivated by conflict, dissatisfaction, or disorientation.

What could motivate this change? Nothing short of …

stop & think

… rethinking what we are doing, how we are living, what our lives are about, where we are going, & what we want to create. There are horizons you have not encountered yet that lie before you as you begin to travel the road of creating

Our DUTY is to the future.

duty (n.)     … pp. of debere “to owe” (see debt)”

debt (n.)    … from L. debitum “thing owed”.”

We owe the future everything. Nature knows that. Look no further than the efforts of animal parents – every year they undertake the exhausting task of birthing & raising new young & then they set them free – no looking back – because the duty is to the future.

We do not owe the past.

We owe the future.

Let’s talk about pollution for a moment.

no future pollution

NO. Not that pollution

That pollution is a result of the
real polluting
that’s been going on for far too long …
future pollution

So let’s give a round of applause to …

future f'kd

the sex pistols of the media
& haven’t they done a terrific job of showing us that
‘we have no future’

Not only do we owe a debt to the future …

debt (n.)    … from L. debitum “thing owed

… we are also meant to own it …

owe (v.)  … “to have, own,” from P.Gmc. *aiganan “to possess”  …  from PIE *aik- “to be master of, possess

There’ll be a reason why the anglish words now & own are secret twins.

possess (v.)  mid-15c., “to hold, occupy, reside in.”

If you do not stake a claim in the/your future, then something or someone else can, & will do so.

Why do you think so much work has been done to turn us away from it – via gloom, doom, fear & waiting? It wouldn’t surprise me if ‘death’ as we (don’t) know it, was crafted into its current state as the icing on the fear-of-the-future cake.

Let’s face it, most of us have a suspicion there is much more to life than what we have been led to expectpossibilities that there are dimensions to ourselves, depths of our being, & heights to our aspirations that are lurking just below the surface. Despite years of attempts by relatives, friends, acquaintances & society …

promised us

… to bring us to our senses, the desire & impulse to reach for what is highest in us is still there … perhaps we are only a shadow of our future self, & the subtle persistent force that nags at our consciousness – to be a creator, one who brings into existence creations that previously lived only in one’s innermost dimensions

End of Part I

~  ~  ~

Text in this colour from The Path of Least Resistance – Robert Fritz

Text in this colour from I am Right, You are Wrong – Edward de Bono

Text in this colour from Helplessness – Martin Seligman

December 3, 2012. Uncategorized. 9 comments.