the curse of knowing

As a fellow truth seeker, I’m guessing you want to know many things.

Indeed you…


…itch & burn to understand so very much.

But what if I told you that all the knowledge you are amassing is destroying you?

Scary eh?

And what if I told you I had discovered an antidote.

Would you be willing to hit the
Toolonginthisplace Buy Now button

bye now

  for a mere

What is truth worth to you?

What is knowing worth to you?

What price would you be willing to pay. Because there is a price, an exchange, that needs to be made to stop the rot.

Actually it will cost you way more than $199.99 if you want to know.

In truth it will cost you the rest of your life,
though in a …

no sale

… non-sell your soul kind of way.

You see something devilishly tricky sticky has been done to the words we live by.

Words that don’t belong together have been bonded forming a mind glue that has been nigh on unbreachable.

Just as the unbreakable thread Gleipnir was forged of impossible ingredients to hold …


… the monster wolf Fenrir until the end times, so too the English language has been used to forge forged diabolical concepts from irreconcilable ideas.

The offspring of these incestuous unions created …


… monstrous children that now roam the world voraciously devouring the minds they inhabit.

When incompatible species mate, monsters are created.

We’re going to take a look at the ogres of truth that were …


… created when knowing …


… was inseminated with proving.

First we need to see what was once true, etymologically speaking, as opposed to what it has become:

true (adj.) Old English triewe …”faithful, trustworthy, honest, steady in adhering to promises, friends, etc.,”

truth (n.) Old English triewð … “faith, faithfulness, fidelity, loyalty; veracity, quality of being true; pledge, covenant

“Sense of “consistent with fact” first recorded c. 1200; that of “real, genuine, not counterfeit” is from late 14c”

… and what was trust

trust (n.) c. 1200, “reliance on the veracity, integrity, or other virtues of someone or something; … from Old Norse traust “help, confidence, protection, support,” …”comfort, consolation… from PIE root *deru- “be firm, solid, steadfast.”

trust (v.) c. 1200, from Old Norse treysta “to trust, rely on, make strong and safe

So truth was once all about qualities, directions & …


… pointers to a way of being & living.

Truth lay with the individual as something to strive towards consistently, by the day, hour & minute. It was the developmental task of a lifetime.

It is interesting to note that,

“English and most other IE languages do not have a primary verb for “speak the truth,” as a contrast to lie”

Why is that?

When ‘truth’ has been made almost a god in this world, why does it not have its own action hero?

Because the truth we seeking is, in actuality, a monster.

It was born of trying to prove what is unknowable. It was born of the belief that such a thing is desirable and or possible.

It is not.

Today I suggest we have to STOP knowing things before …


… our brains are taken over.

We have no right or ability to KNOW anything at least not as we have been taught. It’s one of the biggest mind-fucks at work in this place.

School was about implanting this idea in our heads & getting us to live by this lie.

What is knowing really about? Try these on:

notice, perceive, realize, recognize, see, discern distinguish

These are working words.

Working with the reality of things, taking the t-i-m-e to build a connection, yes to attempt to understand a little more but with the realisation that we actually ‘know’ fuck all, always have, always will.

But that doesn’t stop us from doing our best to be with what we are doing or who we are with.

Currently what happens is that we are cursing each other & everything we come in contact with, with our ‘knowing’.

Because we have equated knowing with proving.

And proving is all about solidifying & …


… cementing into place.

prove:  substantiate  fix  manifest  settle

The ogres we have created in our minds are the ones that meet those we come in contact with. They are the ones who engage in the daily activities that we step away from because we think we already ‘know’ this thing or that, this person or that. We vacate our premises and allow the monsters to act in our stead.

And don’t they do a great job?


How does it work?

Think of a lovely …


… fresh flowing stream.

As soon as we begin to ‘know’ something, a small dam begins to build. Slowly twigs get caught, then leaves & branches & flotsam & before long a jam has occurred. With jams the natural flow has been interrupted & …


… the water gets stagnant. Mosquitoes appear, things decay. It’s not pretty.

If you & I were to meet things would start off fresh.

But slowly the need to know sets in, in accordance with the mindset of knowing-proving that we live by.

We would set out to solve each others mystery, fix each other in our minds, be sure of each other, figure each other out, get a picture of each other, figure out if we can trust each other & how much. Once the picture is painted & the image sealed, then the curse goes to work.

When I know you and
you know me,

lock-down occurs.

No new information or updates will be allowed. I will hold you to be the person I NOW know you to be & vice versa.

This same procedure applies to all the information, ‘knowledge’ & answers we know.

There is a force at work here, do not underestimate it, even though it’s invisible. It comes into action in our words, look, gestures & moulds the other person into who we now KNOW they are. We have an image of them, a map of them & this force will use us to make them conform to this image.

This force has the same power & unstoppability as…


… a freight train at full speed.

It’s no wonder we need a variety of friends so we can be all the people we are instead of the one version we are forged & forced into when we are known.

It’s no wonder we can’t stop trying to help, save or educate people on ‘the truth’.

This is nothing to do with blame.

Its digging deep into the shite that covers us & prevents us from living differently & effectively.

Used wisely, knowing would actually be like the truth of old truth.

It would be a way of being & living. And it’s job would be to know we can know nothing. All we can seek to do is strive to better understand about not knowing.

You see everything here is paradoxical.

It’s really the most amazing thing … & as frustrating as fuck.

If you want to know, you have to not know. And you have to keep working, steadfastly to not know.

Here’s a simplistic example of how it currently (doesn’t) work:

You want to make a cake. So you go the pantry and find a cake then blend up the cake, pour it into a baking dish & cook it. Hey presto a cake.

In reality if you want to make a cake you take the strangest of ingredients that have little in common with each other. You mix them up the way THEY NEED to be mixed up and bake them according to what THEY NEED to transform them into a cake.


Only if you follow this paradoxical procedure, will you end up with cake. Or anything else for that matter.

Herein lies the essence of real knowing.

It’s about learning what other people, situations, objects need to receive or how they work best. Then you cater to that, or supply that. And then you also get what you need.


We cannot know the mystery of people & things, without desecrating or destroying them in the process.

Science kills & dissects…

death knows

… to know.

This is how we have also been trained.

We can know only as much as we are willing to not know, not kill, not cut up, not demystify.

Because knowing
is an experience
not a fact.


March 26, 2018. Uncategorized.


  1. Maria Rigel replied:

    I think you are making the classic mistake of thinking that what *is* is what *ought to be*.

    Certainly mysteries, in and by themselves, don’t lead to any flexibility. Many ancient peoples had an attitude that ordinary people should be kept ignorant of a number of matters, and presumably those ordinary people were itching to know. But that didn’t make those societies more flexible and open to experience.

    There is the other classic mistake of thinking that something has value just because it took you a lot of effort to get it. That also applies to knowledge. And knowledge can become obsolete but keep an aura of status value. Doctors still value cramming in their heads vasts amounts of information, in spite that now that information is easily accessible from a database and there is no need to memorize it.

    Life changes all the time, and there’s no telling what comes next. Maybe what comes next will be some great disenchantment, maybe not. But don’t be so sure that what you are familiar with is what ought to be.


    • alex robinson replied:

      Hi Maria

      I’m sorry you missed this article. The classic mistake is to take what I write literally. Anyone who gets value from my work has to put in their own 50% rather than reading as a judge


    • Annafromohio replied:

      I “know” that knowledge is not cut and dried. There are very few things in life that are so easily black and white. There is always a deeper meaning or causation that can’t always be known. A layer beneath a layer.
      The best doctors do not memorize what can merely be found in a book or a database…. they apply knowledge and studies to look at the bigger picture. They can tease out causal relations to find reason and tweak treatment to fit an individual. It’s absolutely trial and error.
      The worst doctors “go by the book” and could easily be replaced. Luckily, the few that still have something of value to practice and actively choose to explore are still prevalent. This is why physicians will never be obsolete and easily replaced by a diagnostic algorithm.


  2. Dennis Igou replied:

    To discern English, one must expect magical workings. Old English in particular. To hear and read ones own wordsmithing is magic. Use it wisely. To shine forth is key


  3. Mick replied:

    Alchemy :-)


  4. Annafromohio replied:

    I hope you can link this YouTube song…. if not, it’s 46 and 2 by Tool….. this song came on when I was reading your post…. you may be onto to something;) thanks for the read and the inevitable introspection!!


  5. Annafromohio replied:

    I sincerely hope I am not littering on your post here. Or looking like I am seeking validation. I am not. One of my favorite childhood books was “Anne of Green Gables”… the main character always described as being a “kindred spirits”…. she was always aware of such souls and, what’ I believe, made accommodations and saw the magic in others. My grandmother was dynamic. She called me out on my bullshit:… she literally said,” your psychology is my religion”. This was not demeaning, but challenging and free to interpret.


    • Mick replied:

      ‘The Wee Free Men’ by Terry Pratchett.

      Although a ‘children’s’ story it contains power, wisdom and magic.

      More than Douglas Adams, Pratchett was a man of knowledge.


    • alex robinson replied:

      Hi Anna, thoughtful comments are always welcome. This place is for the life & exploration of its readers & anything that adds to that has a home here


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